“…simply make things better for someone else, as if I were to be born again, and that someone else, and it doesn't have to be me, but it could be someone like me, that they would have a better life than I had, that everyone was better. There is something seriously wrong with everyone, and that is something I observed when I was very young. We are the problem, and we need to become better, because we are fucking everything up.”
“So this is who I am. There is something seriously wrong with everyone and we need to fix it, if not for us, then for the future generations."
"Everything I have done in this life, and everything I will do, is for this purpose.”

Saturday, March 9, 2013

day57- another day

So apparently, there is a entirely separate system that is responsible for learning to respond automatically, whether you like it or not. In other words, it does not matter if you enjoy it, or are perhaps even aware of the actual physical sensation of something, you could feel an urge or desire or want to do something. This is called addiction or habit, isn't. I notice for many years of my life, especially after first listening to desteni material, how I did not really enjoy anything, that everything was a mind push or pull, which itself felt violent and uncomfortable. Which is why breath is so important to be here. Because here is where you direct, where everything exist, where we really live, and where we can really learn. That is why it is important to stop emotions and feelings, breathe and be here. When I feel anxiety or fear, stop breathe. If I feel a physical pain, be here, breathe, I look at what am I separating myself from here, and then stop the separation, and realign. Within breath I direct, so i direct. Within breath, being here, I can see so I see. I can see dishonesty and honesty. I can live/act. I get to know myself/be intimate with myself.
-going to sleep

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