Yogan's Journey to Life

--> So a really cool point opened up today in my social psychology class. We were looking at the tragedy of the commons, and the prisoners dilemma and ways that social psychology has found that may be useful/relevant. Both of these terms are common situations that are studied in different domains, one being Political science and another Economics.             So one point I remember I thought of in class but did not get a chance to share was that if one simply were to consider the factor of time and long term costs, then the tragedy of the commons and prisoners dilemma are straight forward. If you abuse everyone then you are giving permission to everyone else to abuse and so you guarantee that there will be drastic consequences for all, including yourself. So there is something wrong, or uneducated in the human in seeing the short term benefits, and see that through time the events that will come to pass. This is imp...

--> So for this Blog post I am going to ask Why do we accept and allow Self-Esteem as a force that directs our decisions, deeds, thoughts, emotions, and feelings, and essentially the world?             Self-Esteem has been studied in Social Psychology leading to some very interesting observations of some human behavioral phenomena. In a recent Blog, I had mentioned three terms from Social Psychology that are themselves Human behavioral phenomena that are widespread. These terms were Pluralistic ignorance, Bystander Effect, and Conformity. One can imagine how Self-Esteem, a term so abstract and intangible could have a hand in many many Behavioral phenomena and even just everyday behaviors, for instance, Self-handicapping. Externalization             If one do a quick search on the internet for the definition of Self-Handicapping one will find this definition...

-->          Looking at how humans currently relate to animals and plants, we see the earth as a resource, an essentially dead thing. So too we treat the animals and plants on the earth where they readily are killed for our interest and profit. If you have not already I suggest watching Human Resources- Social Engineering in the20th Century, they make a point that our current philosophy is the mechanistic approach which capitalism embodies. We see humans as machines to be controlled as well as the animals, plants and earth itself. We see this embodied in many forms in entertainment, where super heroes, action movies, readily destroy things. A personal story related to this, I had as a child been very fascinated and enjoyed destruction where the very thought of buildings getting destroyed or fighting occurring where the entire environment would get beat up and all this action, and technology would be firing… it was exciting. All th...

So im going to take a moment here to explain some of the basics of human operant conditioning. The goal is to empower us with the obvious commonsense that we have adjusted our behavior to seek our own comfort and so within doing so we have essentially become passive and apathetic to Life. Since this requires Challenging, it will be difficult and so requires persistence. I could remember as a child I would fight for change in human behavior. So if you have such memories of yourself standing up because you knew something was wrong, I suggest you get back to that place where you were as a child and would be willing to face situations. This is a strength within the power of Honesty in Seeing Directly how things are and how things are Unacceptable, and So Take that Commonsense and APPLY IT.              I took a Learning class last semester the spring of ’12. I had throughout the class made many connections between The Real...

--> Film review: Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20 th Century               So I watched this film, which you can access here . There are many points that are raised so im going to pick one point which was not fully addressed in the film. The film mentioned how frustration was a key component in an anger response where frustration was taken out on others. This I believe is a commonsense point where we as individuals have seen at one time that someone was angry and expressing that anger in their voice or actions when interacting with another being and in doing so find some relief. So the point in the film was raised that adolescents who fight in school were feeling frustrated at not achieving what they desired as teacher approval and system approval. The film mentions how children at an early age, and so are very vulnerable, are made subject to a system where the only purpose is to perform said acti...

As a child i was brought up expecting myself to be a savior. My parents had told me i was an old soul. So i formed a belief about myself that i was somehow more than others. For no apparent reason other than i was an old soul and so acted more mature. This was certainly an act. So i notice that in my writings i am very self-assuming. yes well this is abusive because it assumes and i really have not investigated points thoroughly in detail. Now having understood this about me i must now change this about me as it will lead to consequences i would rather not create. i notice how this has influenced my general writing even for school where i would think what i write is good, but without considering how it was good, i would only feel that it was good. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use feelings to judge whether something i written as good. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing emotions and feelings while seeing what i write. I forgive myself for accepting...

--> cool pic So its cool I have taken more responsibilities. I feel afraid of failing at my new responsibilities and what consequences may rise. For example if I allow myself to not be a proper buddy. I realize I have the proper support to ask questions from several sources and so there is no excuse. I am able to do this, so simply breathe and walk it. Same with school, breathe and walk it. No excuses, I only have one life. I am in a cool position so lets see what we can make of it!! I started this behaviorist journey to life blog, as in naming it, after I realize the magnitude of this message for everyone.             Im walking separately a thesis point where I will get the chance to study what I found with myself and behaviorism in greater detail. This may involve a literature from many different disciplines in psychology. One point is how we have allowed aversive emotions where we think oh no, this is feeling...

--> --> For this blog I am going to take a memory I just had in my conscious mind. I had written a stream of consciousness as part of an assignment on what you perceive with ‘black.’ I wrote something like sitting on the ocean, laying in the waves feeling the blackness of where my eyes are closed and I simply am relaxed. I had read this to the class and then the teacher said wow, and then asked whether anyone else written something positive with black. Everyone else did not. I then saw the teacher saw me as special. And then I believed myself to be special. Whether he was thinking this or not, I gladly accepted his appraisal.             So this point opened to a similar point of imagining a teacher being impressed with my work and sharing it with the class. I had made a commitment as a child to completely trust my teachers and listen to everything they said because they are teachers. There is no good ...

--> These are self-forgiveness and self- corrective statements for day 21. I suggest reading the preceding post before reading this post. By Kelly Posey I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek relationships to relive an experience of blessed stored within me as a memory from an early childhood experience, where I believed that it was my relationship with my parents and specifically the particular relationship with my mom that was the reason/cause for my experience within me as a energetic feeling known as love, which in fact was due to an accepted and allowed reaction to something in my environment, and so was separate from me from my mind’s point of view and so not my responsibility that I was powerless and helpless to prevent or control this experience that it was natural and how things were suppose to be, when in fact I am the initial creator and have separated himself from his creation as himself, as the physical, and so why humanity is where ...

Self-forgiveness and commitments pertaining to this post http://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-22-self-forgiveness-and.html So in my private writings I had opened up the point of relationships and how I seek relationships to relive an experience of bliss when my parents were in love and I thought I felt love from my parents. Which of course, is an experience within me and so has nothing to do really with my parents but with me. I bring this point up because I am looking at a point that opened up where I see myself as better or more if there is a woman who is standing by me, so to speak. Which is very not cool that because something outside me is different, who I am changes. So I see desire to manifest this point of relationship and I see I fear losing this point, not attaining this point, as I fear who I am without this point, and so in this way fear my own fear. I have to become comfortable with me first to get to know me first before embarking on any relationship, wh...

 My name, Yogan. So a point opened just now where my name Yogan, was used in a particular context, and I saw myself feeling scared. I was like dead afraid I would toe out of line. This is obviously from my early years where as a child your told not to do something or something you did was wrong, all the while not realizing it has nothing to do with punishment but correction. Punishment however is used by parents and others to teach children to not do something. Now, HOW CAN YOU EXPECT CHILDREN NOT TO REALIZE IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH PUNISHMENT BUT PHYSICAL CORRECTION IF YOU ARE SHOUTING, BEING ANGRY, AND ABUSIVE AND PUNISHING? Parents then are obviously not properly trained to have children, so suggest don’t have kids until you sort yourself out first. You can start with this simple point being discussed here.             So I was afraid in this context, which fear, commonsense, is not cool. Why am I afraid? Again, this com...

see my video, where i read this post outloud.  Point: getting nervous when I think someone is listening to me play on the piano.  Note: this a continuation of Day 18 -I played the piano tonight Another dimension I can consider is the moment I decide to play the piano. I had in this particular context, Sunday night, felt uncomfortable in my own skin. I was reacting emotionally that snowballed from a particular event. The ‘event’ was a moment of fear of having to face beings intimately and so face conflict. Why conflict? Because the world is a mess, and most beings have the opinion that the world is fine or good, or they fear taking responsibility for the mess, which all really is responsible. Now, what is interesting about this is I am creating conflict because I am expecting conflict and to find something that is not what I expect I would be surprised which would mean I am unprepared. So bottom line, stop creating the world as it is through the expectation the world w...