Yogan's Journey to Life

Sometimes we ask what our purpose and meaning is in life. Our purpose and meaning is each other and life itself. Our purpose and meaning is to live for ourselves, each other, and everyone. To live this life, live in this body. To find a way where your actions will accumulate to improve the quality of life of everyone. Our purpose and meaning in life is each person. Our purpose, our mission, is to live with each person, stand with them, walk beside them. It is to hold each person within you. It is to hold yourself within the palm of your hands. Do good. Live good. Foster life, nurture life. Provide. Give. We can recreate this world so that all may have. We can recreate a town so that all may have. We can recreate the land beneath our feet so that it can provide for all. Our purpose is to enjoy every moment and to spend every moment living the responsibility of being able to do good, and live well with everyone. Money can be used for good. We can create, build and farm the thin...

Chapter Sitting in the Canyon Sitting in the Canyon in the morning. The air feels wet. I'm on the little island. There is mist across the water. Its quiet. I hear a few insects chirping. I look across the water and its still. I take a breath and feel it. I know this place. I know who I am. I sit on the ground. I can feel the dirt with my butt. I feel the dirt with the palm of my hands. Its dry, wood pulp-like dirt. There is some dirt patches that are cold and mud like, but dry. It breaks apart in my fingers like some dry dirt, that crushes easily. The sky is white with clouds. The sun only starting to illuminate it. I lay back and I feel the ground with my back. I take a breath. I close my eyes for a moment. I listen. Chapter Laying on the Grass It was dark. The grass was like a bed. It was so long and thick. So bushy. I had a sweater. Laying back it was amazing, so soft. It was quiet, except for some far off voices chatting. The sky was dark and so huge to stare at. I felt q...

The most sacred emotion of all. The most protected the one type you don't want to get rid of. The feelings. In other words, the positive emotions. In other words the ones that you like, the ones that you say feel good. The ones that you want to keep. I call them emotions because they are really the same as anger or sadness. You don't see that though. You don't. If you did then you wouldn't protect it. The truth is that feelings are not better than emotions. The positive is no better, it is actually EXACTLY the same. Its the same shit. It just takes a second longer, there is a delay. When you feel good there is a delay before you feel bad. It takes some time. And because your memory is so bad, and your awareness is horrible you don't see it. But its there. That is what happens each time. Feeling good is feeling bad. Feeling the physical is neither good or bad. Feeling the physical pain is just pain. Feeling the physical injury is just feeling it. Feeling the phys...

Remove the emotions from words. The mind is shit and emotions are shit. Though how to change yourself? Start with words. For every single word, remove the emotional meaning. Make it so that no words have any emotional meaning within you. Words like War, Business, Rivals probably have emotional meaning for you. I say probably because its possible you never encountered these words before. Its possible you are still just a kid that never used these words and so never placed any emotions in them. So the same can be true for you. The goal is to remove all the emotions from all the words that you have placed emotions within. Then you will place a physical definition in the word. This you do by seeing what the word actually means physically, and that you make that what the word means. For example, with War, you may see that war is something bad and that people die and it doesn't need to exist. You feel resistance, emotion, anger, uncomfortable, irritation, annoyance. Remember this is an...

The most important Thing is everyThing. The air that you breathe, do you know that you are one with it. Do you know that you are equal to a breath. Do you know that you are connected to everyone and everything? That you can communicate with everyone/everything? The separation that we perceive is not real. You are capable of so much, and together we can change everything. We can make this world into one where we work together in every way to meet our needs and enjoy this life. Things do not have to be so difficult, we are making it difficult. If we just let go, and remember the truth then life becomes easy. The very grass you walk upon, are you aware of it? Are you aware of the very ground beneath you? Do you walk with the ground in equality, neither above it nor below it? The meat of the flesh, the water, the flesh of the plants, are you aware that you are eating yourself and so that it is okay? Because everything transforms. The body of the plants, the meat, the water becomes you ...

I remember the Joy I felt in my first relationship. It was pure happiness. I was purely innocent. Naively happy. Believing they are the one, and I will marry  them and we will live happily ever after. The expression of being innocent and joy, these are hidden here in plain sight. This kind of joy there is something real to it. The separation is the fact that I only tied it to this one person and to this relationship. So that when they fall away and pursued other people, that my joy and innocence went with them, or so it seems. Really it is right here in me. Living this kind of joy and innocence with everyone is a real thing. It can become a living word that I choose to live on command. Except now I learned about what it would take to set up a relationship with someone for real now. Because initially I wanted to be with anyone I could. I just wanted to be in a relationship with SOMEONE. This is not right, and this is not real. It is a recipe for disaster. The kind of sadness...