Yogan's Journey to Life

So this blog will be focusing on the topic: What is it like to live through the eyes of a child on this earth? Various topics will be covered. Some examples include child labor, children soldiers, children living in poverty, child refugees, child prostitution, and children sex trafficking, pedophilia as mental dysfunction. Other topics that will be covered will answer questions such as: What is it like as a child to have a family? To be raised by parents? To go through the education system? To grow up in the modern culture, including music, fashion, popularity, purpose, celebrities, and money?  In essence the we will be investigating the following: what problems do children face today, and what solutions/options are available to them or how you as an adult can support them?

So back then, around when I took this photo, before Desteni, I had trouble expressing myself. I would be known as the quiet and shy one. I wouldn't share what I thought, unless I felt confident that I would look good or positive in the eyes of others. So I felt I always had to say the right thing all the time. That I wasn't allowed to say the wrong thing.... ever. Now, I am much different. I still have things to learn and expand upon, but in this area of myself, I do see obvious differences, as well as my process or history of change where I experimented and tested out my expression. So, for example I would start sharing the blunt honesty of myself and what I saw as what is best for all and oneness and equality. Initially I would feel extremely nervous and panicked, yet I pushed myself to share what I saw. And I noticed that I would speak in quite a panicked, loud, way, because of the fears I had. Yet within it I did speak in stability as what I said, where I knew there w...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of being attacked and hurt by someone's words. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of arguementative, attackative, aggressive, angry people. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of someone becoming arguementative and attackative in response to me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of sharing, speaking, and writing, because I am afraid of someone being arguementative, attackative, aggressive in response, and I fear that those responses will hurt me emotionally, where I react with feeling inferior, hurt, belittled, feel less than, pushed away, isolated, alone, dumb, useless, worthless. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame someone else for how I feel. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the words that someone else spoke or wrote for making me feel a certain way. The Frogivenes...

When I judge someone as special, I fear doing something they disapprove. I wish to be in their approval. Also, I see them as someone that I can abuse and treat badly sometimes. And that I can abuse and treat badly others that are not them. For many people, family is like this. You treat your family both special and also horribly. You both listen to them and seek their approval, and seek to annoy them. Such is the life for many people. Can life be better? A better life is when we include all people in our consideration where there is a freedom within equality. Where you don't seek family approval, but instead live in a way that is truly in harmony with ALL, including yourself as you are part of all. All means all plants too, and all animals, and Earth and existence, as well as people. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not make everyone equally special, and so realizing special is an illusion, and instead a harmony and balance with existence is needed.

What does it practically mean to be Positive in this world, in such a way that it supports oneself as well as everyone else? So this means for example, always looking for the solution to problems that exists, that one encounters, and assist others to see the solutions that exists in the problems they face. It also means being proactive, meaning that when one encounters the problem and sees the solution, that one immediately moves to manifesting that solution into reality. That it doesn't just stay within one's mind as a thought or an idea. That one actually creates it and makes it so. It also means that one doesn't participate within problems and create more problems that don't exist. Instead one is able to analyze problems, deconstruct problems so to understand them, because the more one understands the problem, the more one understands the solution. Because the solution is found WITHIN the problem. To be positive in this world means that when one encounters a ...

So what I am about to share may seem like an embarrassing story. So I will start it out just like that. When I entered college I had a belief that there are people that don't need to eat to live, and to become this way is fairly easy, if one is very spiritual. From this belief, I started eating less and less. I would push myself to what they call fast. I would let myself feel the hunger, and not act on it. So over time I forgot about this belief and doing this. Instead I was focused on studying and the stress. And I would skip meals, or wait to eat, because I didn't have enough time. And I found that I stopped feeling hungry, and I had to actually remind myself to eat regularly. So this has still affected me until today, where I have trouble feeling hungry. So based on what I did in college, I believe that I conditioned myself to suppress/ignore feeling hunger. Because I wouldn't respond to it. Similar to an anorexic person. So something I started doing now was eating m...

You have cows eyes. Would you want to be told this? It turns out that this was actually a compliment of beauty back in the day. Because if you ever see into the eyes of a real cow, it is one of the most beautiful things.  And back in the day, people were more connected to agriculture, and to cows and farms. For example, before the industrial revolution. about 90% of the population in United States worked on farms or agriculture. And today, less that 5% work on farms. So there has been a major shift. People now adays have lost the presence of nature in their everyday life, and they have distorted views of the natural world. For example, calling someone a cow, is considered an insult. So is calling someone a pig. This shows how lost and separate we are from these animals. Beauty itself has become distorted, where ugliness and beauty are tied to a creation that is outside of ourselves. Namely, the fashion industry, and beauty industry. We are told and shown what is beautif...

So I saw this video and decided to do a post on this subject. https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=997679220290124 So within me I have identified the same point, and it is a common point in people of today. Where how much money you make is something that defines and values people. This is a sad point. Because we miss so much on so many great people, and we miss out so much in life. Because for example, we believe that something has to cost money to be fun. When fun is here to be had anywhere. You can have fun with objects, with nature and people, and it doesn't cost any money. So much becomes limited and put into a box within our minds through utilizing money as that point. We don't question this fully. And many of us embrace this point fully, where how we act, how we look represents the value of money. We we may feel pretty or beautiful or handsome if we are wearing expensive clothes or expensive makeup, or hair products, or the opposite happens where we feel ugly and s...

So I was presented with constructive criticism, and so I faced an old pattern where when someone provides critical feedback, I resist and react personally. So the correction is to listen to the feedback and try it out. It is a simple point, yet the correction is not often applied by many people. To support others, what I do is to see what I am feeling, to breathe, and firstly agree unconditionally to try out what the person is saying. So within that I am clear and objective and honest. If I feel emotional or resistance, that means my breathing wasn't effective, so also my decision to stop wasn't effective.