Math- memory
I was helping out a friend with math, and I was using a scientific calculator. When I was making certain quick movements with my fingers I saw a picture of my math classroom where I had I used a scientific calculator before. I felt energetic: nervous and excited. I didn't question the energy. For me it was something normal, something I had felt many times over again within my math classes and various other classes. Now that I can look back on the point I see how the energy is overwhelming for me, and is very heavy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to generate energy within me of exctiement and nervousness while using the graphing calculator, with specific movements of my fingers.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing melf to access the image of my statistics classroom where I used the graphing calculator when I had used the graphing calculator this night.
And so I forgive myself for accepting and allownig myself to charge this image within me of the statistics classroom with positive energy as excitement and negative energy as nervousness.
When and as I am in a setting where i am working with math or math related ideas or subjects- I stop and breather and check with myself if there is any energy, positive or negative, and I remove them, and remain here- I realize already many times over how energy of any kind, positive and negative always leads to me being less than what I am capable of which, is full self-direction and movement of myself, in the most intricate and intimate ways, that I do not require energy whatsoever, and energy is like the middle man- completely not necessary, which only leads to waste and inefficiency, and lack of vision, clarity and insights to what is here.
I commit myself to move myself within teaching math, instructing math, using math, and other various scenarios that deal with math.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to generate energy within me of exctiement and nervousness while using the graphing calculator, with specific movements of my fingers.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing melf to access the image of my statistics classroom where I used the graphing calculator when I had used the graphing calculator this night.
And so I forgive myself for accepting and allownig myself to charge this image within me of the statistics classroom with positive energy as excitement and negative energy as nervousness.
When and as I am in a setting where i am working with math or math related ideas or subjects- I stop and breather and check with myself if there is any energy, positive or negative, and I remove them, and remain here- I realize already many times over how energy of any kind, positive and negative always leads to me being less than what I am capable of which, is full self-direction and movement of myself, in the most intricate and intimate ways, that I do not require energy whatsoever, and energy is like the middle man- completely not necessary, which only leads to waste and inefficiency, and lack of vision, clarity and insights to what is here.
I commit myself to move myself within teaching math, instructing math, using math, and other various scenarios that deal with math.
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