Yogan's Journey to Life

Sorry for taking so long to post guys. Something from TODAY, what? Yes.  Reacting Violently. Sometimes have I have violent reaction within my mind. I imagine/picture me throwing something. Sometimes its my computer. Just now it was the tv remote. In my mind I see the object break apart as it lands on the surface. And I move in one complete movement to throw the object. And I sort of become aware of my body points as if I would be prepared to do this physically/actually. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react violently within my mind. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine and picture me throwing something, like the tv remote or my computer laptop. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to picture and imagine the object crashing on the floor/wall and breaking into pieces. I   feel angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry. I forgive myself for accepting an...

Don't take your thoughts personally i have been taking my thinking personally. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take my thoughts to mean "who I am" as who I am cannot change. Within the principle of what is best for me, I write. I commit myself to write within this principle of what is best for me in this blog. What is best for me, includes establishing a world that is best for all. It includes forgiving myself for accepting and allowing what is less than what is best for me. It includes becoming what is best for me. And what is best for me is to live in a way that is best for everyone including me by practically considering every part, including me, without compromising any part, including me. How I treat myself is how I would treat existence. So by taking care of me and supporting me, I am stating that how I would treat existence would be with the same care and support. So who I am here is a gift, an opportunity to take care of something th...

         I was holding onto the validation from certain people in my life. I was restricting and limiting myself based on what I perceived would be validated by these people. In my mind, I was playing out scenarios, and conversations where what they would say to me would be positive or negative (They were mostly negative). Because I wouldn’t let these people go as attachments, I could not stop this negative thinking. I kept thinking how I didn’t know anything as I did something which I haven’t spoken about with someone else. I couldn’t move me (this is a belief), I didn’t know what to do (this is a belief). And because I wouldn’t let go of my perceptions and beliefs about who they are, and what they think of me, I really couldn’t do anything. So the solution was to let them go within myself. So within that if they were removed from the face of the planet, I would have a reaction. So I stopped that reaction through breathing and bei...

 I fear someone coming up to me and tell me I am evil. I fear losing the people in my life. I fear losing friends. I fear being alone. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the people in my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that through fearing I could hold onto the people in my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to through this to justify fear. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being alone. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that by fearing it means I care. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that its ok to act on fear if it means that you can keep certain people in your life. Fear harms me. It is unacceptable because of this. For me, I stop fear.