Self-Forgiveness- The one - Day 6

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be the one that someone loves, haves.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe i am the one that is good.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be the one that is loved.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have the one in my life, the one who loves me unconditionally.
I forgive myself for not loving myself unconditionally.
I forgive myself for desiring to have someone in my life to love.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire love, to love, and feel love.
I forgive myself for accepting allowing myself to want the one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of the one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and live that the one is more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize we are one with all and only we can exclude ourselves.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe there is the one other than us all here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for a designated one who is destined to be with me and love me and is perfect.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire the perfect someone.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to keep the one to myself and not share her with anybody and be greedy with her.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire ownership of the one, to dominate the one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be the one, the superhero and the only one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be the one who single handedly saves the world.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have such a ridiculously huge ego that i ignore practicality that i have to be one of many who stands equally for our part our position in the world.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself desire for others to be losers, to give up and allow me to shine.

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