“…simply make things better for someone else, as if I were to be born again, and that someone else, and it doesn't have to be me, but it could be someone like me, that they would have a better life than I had, that everyone was better. There is something seriously wrong with everyone, and that is something I observed when I was very young. We are the problem, and we need to become better, because we are fucking everything up.”
“So this is who I am. There is something seriously wrong with everyone and we need to fix it, if not for us, then for the future generations."
"Everything I have done in this life, and everything I will do, is for this purpose.”

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Where denial/suppresion ends... life can flourish/grow.


There are people that lie in the world. There are people that deceive in the world. There are people that do evil things. There are. This is a truth that I haven’t accepted. And people may do both. They may good intentions and help sometimes, and other times they may do evil things. This is true. This is the reality of the world. I have to accept this as what this world is right now. Because otherwise if I live out there in the world I will be inviting and opening myself up to abuse. I will believe willingly. I will trust willingly. I will let myself open to any lie or deception. I will get myself in trouble. I have to change and I have to stop resisting seeing some people as acting and behaving and doing evil things. I have to stop believing that people are inherently good. Instead I have to realize that people are programmable, and that this world is programmable, and that we are just following are programs. And what I have within me is the program to be gullible, to be honest, to be trusting, to be giving,  to be of service to anyone. So what I need to do is to sift the wheat from the chaffe. Being able to see and recognize manipulation. To be able to see and recognize evil. To be able to see and recognize abuse in people as they do so. I have blinded myself, or perhaps I have never seen. I have refused to see selfish actions, selfish intentions. I have seen the world through rose-colored glasses. And I refused to let myself to see anything but a rose colored world. People, real people, in my world and everyday life, are acting selfishly. And there are real people that will take advantage of me. I have been too good-hearted and too giving. I am committed to what is best for all, which includes what is best for me. Allowing myself to be abused is not what is best for me. Allowing myself to not see and be on the look out for abusers and people that do evil is not what is best for me or others. I haven’t been living in THIS reality. I haven’t been here working with what is here, with the people that are here now. This is the reality right now, and throughout time I will put pressure to change it through people. Through supporting the change within the persons/people that are ready/willing. How can I create a world that is best for all if I am not able to see what is in fact here?


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel fear and resistance to accepting that evil does exist, that manipulation does occur for selfish benefit, that abuse does occur, that such manipulation and abuse can occur to me by people in my life. Instead I realize that by being aware of such abuse and such evil existing, that I can actually act to stop it or prevent it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress all evil, all manipulations, all lies that occur in the world, in my world, in me, in others, where it is here for me to perceive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing and allowing myself to limit my perception and limit my ability by wanting ot believe that everyone is 100% good that there is no selfish evil intent, that everyone is innocent, that no one will abuse another for their own self-interest, that everyone is taking responsible for what they do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear saying or using the word evil, to fear saying or using the word manipulation, to fear saying or using the word lying, either silently to myself or aloud, to call an action as being a lie, as being evil, as being a manipulation or deception.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in denial of actions or intents of people to take advantage of me or other people for their personal benefit.
 Within this I realize by living in denial of other people taking advantage, that I have blinded myself to not only seeing other people as taking advantage, but also myself from taking advantage. Thus denying suppressing seeing evil is how evil continues to exist not only in this world and other people, but also in myself, even outside of my awareness!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty and ashamed of acting within evil, instead of investigating why I am doing the evil acts, understanding the reasons and motivations, and sorting them out so they are aligned to what is best for all. Thus I don't need guilt or shame. I just need to investigate myself, learn what is going on, and simply make sure I am what is best for everyone/life, which includes me.

When and as I see evil either in myself or another - I stop and I breathe- I realize that suppressing or denying what I am seeing or making it seem better than what it is, or in any way shape, distort what I see so it is not in fact what is happening - I stop and I breathe- I realize to make things seem better or worse than what they are is a lie- I realize that making something seem good, okay, or acceptable, is a lie - I realize that I must be able to see what is happening here right now without the judgments, biases or desire for things being automatically good without requiring my action or intervention- I realize that by making things seem better or good that I am allowing for abuse to occur, I am allowing danger to occur, I am allowing harm to occur- I realize I am not the one that decides whether something, or someone is good or okay, it is the investigation and finding out that tells me how things ARE, thus it isn't my decision it is simply what I see directly. Deciding what you see is a manipulation or lie.

Thus I commit myself to be realistic, to be investigative, to be curious, to embrace the evil/good that is here so that I can understand it and change it to what is best for all, and so I can take responsibility for the outcome within myself and within others. 

Friday, April 29, 2016

Psychological Manipulation

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_manipulation

I have stumbled onto the research done on psychological manipulation. As it turns out it is actually very specific and detailed. I wasn't expecting that manipulation would be described in such detail. That was a surprise. It not only describes the kinds of ways of manipulating, which are 25, it also describes the traits, aspects, personalities, beliefs and perceptions of people that make them susceptible or vulnerable to manipulation, of which there are also 25. Of course there could be much more, but what is described here is what 2 people, researchers, found.

As I was reading through this I started to see how I do have traits of myself which makes me susceptible to manipulation. Indeed I have even verbally shared with another my vulnerability as if this is who I am. This includes believing that everyone is good, as well as trusting people. I have also lived lonely, impulsive, frugal, over-conscientious, emotionally dependent, naive, low self-confidence, desire to please others, emotophobia, lack of assertiveness, soft personal boundaries, narcissism, altruistic, too empathetic, too honest, too fair, impressionable, and immature.

However, now what I learned about Human beings is that we are equal and one. Thus according to this principle I must be balancing out this point about which I would like to summarize as being a Victim, though also living out the Abuser.

So the one point I see most clearly is the relationship with myself as the mind. Where indeed my relationship with the mind is that I am a victim and the mind is the abuser, that is MY relationship. That is how and where the mind has power. For example, with fear this is quite clear. With fear, whenever I feel afraid, what is this saying? When I feel fear this says I am a victim of fear. I am a victim of my emotion. I am powerless to fear. That fear is more powerful than me. That is what is said/spoken as the unspoken but not so hidden truth that fear dominates me. This basic point in relationship to just ONE emotion is the ONE relationship that describes ALL the relationships I have with each and every single part of my mind, equal and one. That I am dominated by my mind. That I am a victim and my mind is the abuser. That the mind has power and I don't. This is what occurs whenever I feel something, whenever I think something, whenever a memory is here, whenever anything happens with the mind. This is an illusion. Yet it is the illusion I am living to be real each and every moment I feel a thought. Though has literally become just a feeling, something charged and energetic so it no longer becomes a tool of observation, of seeing, of understanding. No. So the solution is simple. Correct the misaligned. Correct the illusion. Correct the situation, the relationship. Correct myself. I am not a victim. The mind isn't my my master. I won't accept and allow this any longer.

Within that what happens? My future changes, my destiny changes, I can create my life. I can create me. Is it just as simple as writing it out in a blog. No. But this is the start. Writing it out in this moment is a space within me within the entire spectrum of thinking of mind activity, where I become real for this moment in living word and deed. Where I recognize the bullshit that is going on inside of me. To see the invalidness of a life that less than what life is. Where anything less than the perfection of a living and breathing body, within this world, where I stand as the one who can lead his life. Where the illusion of having leaders lead us, or be the point FOR us, when that point is one that WE need to INDIVIDUALLY stand FOR OURSELVES. Only I can take the responsibility that is mine, which is this life, this body, this time that I do have. To live this basic truth of these words is the essence or the only point one requires to live for real. This isn't a message of love, or emotion, of feeling, or motivation or inspiration. This is just the truth. The truth shakes you at the core of your being, it stirs you within yourself. It awakens the cell of the body YOU inhabit. See, LIVE, breathe the truth of a single breath of the body in every moment. That the physical is what is real, not what goes on in your head. Not a single thought, not a single judgment, none of that is real in any way whatsoever.

Only you can walk out of the mess you created in your head. That mess WILL only grow bigger and bigger. It can only get worse. Life does not wait, it progresses. One day you WILL die. That is a fact. Your time is limited. Excuses, justifications, reasons, thoughts, rationality, all of that means nothing when your time finally comes. Will you actually ever live? Only you will KNOW.

Investigate everything I said. Take NONE of it as true. Cross-reference it, test it out. You can't trust anyone or anything. You must verify and know for a fact! A leader would want you to trust him. I am no leader. Never trust me. Learn to trust yourself, by becoming trust worthy in what you INVESTIGATE. When it comes to investigation one must ALWAYS be clear. Otherwise what you see is TAINTED by you. Psychological Manipulation is everywhere. And it starts with what is going on in YOU!!! Beware!!!

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Meeting someone again

So I saw someone online that I haven't seen for years. And it seemed like their life was over. They had a great success, but then everything crashed. And now they are back, and they are different. Yet still themselves, and obviously matured and obviously had learned something and gained something in who they are.

While I did enjoy who they were before. I enjoy who they are now, and the differences. Its really a surprise for me. And now in a time where my life is again changing, its nice to see an example where someone changes and overcomes difficulty, and sticks to their decision, and the part of them that is real, even if that part changes and becomes difference, thanks to the difficulties and challenges, even if one initially failed at them and fell, but one did pick oneself up from them to learn.

So learning is about making mistakes, is about seeing what it is about you that is causing problems, and changing it, to create solutions. And one very obvious thing about this person is that they are comfortable with who they are, and it is substantial, it has substance.

I mean, we can't live simply adjusting our environment just to ourselves. That is not practical. We need to adjust and change. We need to become better, and more. Otherwise we will just always be the same, which means the same limitations. Life is about growing and expansion, becoming more. I sure hell want to become the most I could ever Be! And it is great to see someone walking their path and showing that they stood. And this person is even better now! They are doing more! THAT is what life is about. When you stop changing, learning, then your in denial and ego, because you just want the whole world to adjust to you. So that is a lesson I can clearly see this person has learned in embracing what they are capable of and what parts of them that is real that they can share and give to the world.

Life is short. What we each do with it, including me, matters. Together with our collective actions and decisions, including mine, we are creating this world, how it is, how you see it before you. The suffering, the wars, the poverty, the destruction. Part of the reason why this exists, is because we have failed to stop them, and we haven't taken ownership of it to stand up to actually change it. Instead we rather ignore and live a life where we don't change, and so the world doesn't either. We need change. TO change is to grow, is to learn, is to become better/more than who we were before. More insights, more realization, more commitments, more responsibilities, more giving.

The secret to changing this world lies in the everyday moments. The small decisions. Who you are, which includes me, determines the moment, and collectively we create our collective experience.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Respect Children

We are continuing from yesterday's post Children's Rights

So respect is not guaranteed to children. In fact, it is normal in society expect children to respect Adults, but not for children to expect respect from adults. Where for some reason adults are allowed to get angry, yell, get irritated and annoyed toward children, yet if children do so, they are at fault. Part of the reasons given, which are excuses and justifications, is that children don't earn money, and that they don't know anything about the world and the struggle that adults go through. That children are given a free ride by their parents, so the children should be as accommodating as possible to the adults. This is based on the notion of survival. But in reality, it is based with ego, as the adults are acting within self-interest at the cost of the children. This cost means that children are talked TO, and they are not heard. This cost means that children should LISTEN and not talk back. This cost means that children should RESPECT their elders. The commonsense here is that respect is given, and is earned based on WHO YOU ARE, not based on merely being old in age. Respect is not bought with money.

Respect is about recognizing the value in humanity, in life of an individual. In mutual support and coexistence that can make life something great and wonderful for both. That our flaws and weaknesses are not tolerated in the name of love. That we support one another to be our best,  with our best. Hold no respect for the weaknesses, flaws, limitations, excuses, hate, anger, fear. Instead challenge and show and reveal the potential for greatness, for care, and growth.

When a child speak, we should stop and listen. When a child speaks we should listen to what they actually said. When a child is here, we should see the child. When we speak to a child, we should simply speak, not in anger, not in expectation, not in want or desire, or in fear. Let us be equals and live the respect that we deserve, and so each one can live for themselves.


Children's Rights

Monday, April 4, 2016

Children's Rights

To my knowledge, no where in the world are children given full rights, as protected under the law. Where they are fully protected, and their rights are met. Rights include points such as safety, freedom of speech or opinion, respect, regard, consideration, protection from discrimination, harassment, abuse of either physical, verbal, emotional or mental nature. As well as protection from extreme or unusual punishments. We can even include the right to water, the right to food, housing, and money, for those who see the physical needs as rights.

So nowhere in the world do I see children protected. Not in the United States. Not in the United Kingdom, not in Australia, in Europe, Africa, Asia, Iceland etc... Nowhere. I may be mistaken, but as far as I know, not one country or city or place guarantees the above written rights to children. In some places adults receive some of these rights, whereas children do not. Why is that?

Well, this is not a reason, but it is what is given or said as a reason why. This is because parents are responsible for their children as their property. Indeed that is how the legal status is set up for children. The words dependent is used, or the word minor.

Indeed, children are regarded in many ways as inferior to adults, and are often discriminated against. Discrimination in its base form is viewing or perceiving someone as inferior to you or other other people. Taking action based on that perception or belief is what acting out discrimination is. But it begins within your thought, belief and who you are. Indeed, even children are taught this, as they tend to view younger children then them as inferior! We all know this by how as children we would classify and judge other children based on their age, where being older was always better. For example it is cooler to be 7 years old and not 6 years old, and it is insulting to be called 6 years old when you are actually 7 years old. The same with the grade of school you are in. This discrimination of children that adults teach and actually implement through them completely within their minds, beliefs, thoughts, where adults wholeheartedly believe that children are inferior to adults and SHOULD listen to what the adult says and follow it, BECAUSE the adult is older. And this belief system that AGE equates to wisdom is harming, and stunting humanity because then we don't analyze and test the substance of the message that someone gives and instead merely follow it within trust, faith or belief. Obeying authority is ridiculous! But actually seeing and understanding for yourself what is the best course of action to take is smart! This you can do by actually using your ability to see, to reason, to analyze, to consider, to test and receive results, making hypotheses or theories, and making conclusions.

Indeed, when/if children do stand up and question authority, which may be an older child or teenager, or an adult like a teacher or parent, or simply some stranger, they are not protected from harassment where typically the outside party will not simply disagree with the child but will actually argue with the intent of dismissing the child as being rebellious, a trouble maker, as stupid, as distruptful, as a nuisance, as a bully. They will call the child names, and squash the child's view and perception of themselves, and to instill doubt. One of the best ways to squash a child's spirit is with anger, because getting angry instills fear within the child, which is almost natural, given the fact that children are physically smaller, and so they are weaker, and they wouldn't be able to defend themselves from an older adult or older child or teenager. And anger is perceived as a threat. This is why anger is so effective in controlling most children because it instills fear of potential physical harm. Currently there is no protection from this sort of harassment and it is considered normal and acceptable and it is not questioned in society. So this form of abuse is not stopped.

We can continue with more examples in a future post....



Sunday, April 3, 2016

You are an Onion of layers of information

Let us look at the human being. Within the human being there are layers of information, systems and programming. For example, breathing is an action that has specific information that says that the body must breathe. This kind of information is on a deep physical level, one which you can't easily or readily change. You can see for yourself, if you try to hold your breath, your body will force you to breathe. Also you can see how you don't have to pay attention to breathing for it to happen. Probably 99% of the breaths you have taken you weren't even aware of, right? You can consider too all the innumerable actions and movements the body has that you don't consciously make happen, such as your heart beating, your digestive system, your temperature regulation, your hydration system, waste system, cleansing system, muscle repair, cell birth etc... Granted however, you do have an influence on these systems both directly and indirectly.

So evidently there is much information stored in the body. In comparison to the above information which is very deep, and very physical, you also have information inside you that is of a different nature. Word based and picture based information, as well as memories. So these are more mental information. These are things that you stimulate and you make simulations with, that you think about, imagine with, sing with, play with. And unfortunately all of this information is learned through thinking and feeling and creating mental memories. However, some of this information is actually learned in a similar fashion as taking a breath. It is absorbed within you. This is evident when you were a young child, only a few years of age. At this time you literally absorbed your spoken language, and learned various sorts of information from facial recognition, visual analysis and understanding, sound production etc... which are so complex and intricate. However, we are not aware of the complexity because we learned it physically, without having to use our minds to think about things. It was as easy as an inhalation. If we had to relearn our native language from scratch, as adults, we would NEVER reach the same level of mastery, because the method of learning we employ as adults is simply inferior to the way learning occurs during the first few years of life.

The information that we aware of on a daily basis, is .00001% of the total information that is in fact stored inside of us. All of this information includes the thoughts you have thought, the memories you have of every moment, of images, pictures, songs, sounds, emotional experiences, belies, fantasies, imaginations... This is something I can't prove because our awareness can only focus on one thing at a time, so you don't have access to ALL of the information that is inside of you ALL at once. And much of that information is layered, and so is hidden behind other information. But you can over time reveal the information that is inside of you, to yourself. Through writing it down. By writing down the thoughts, memories, pictures, emotions, feelings, and experiences you are mapping out what is in fact inside of you. Thus you are actually becoming more and more aware of what information is inside of you. And why is this important? Why bother to know what is stored inside of you? Well that information that is inside of you is having an influence. It is actually determining who you are, mainly because you are not aware of the information and you have been essentially believing that whatever you happen to think or feel is just who you are, when it is in fact information that is based on years of layered information consisting of memories, emotions, experiences, thoughts, reactions that were stored during the individual moments which they were created and accessed. Thus when you have a thought, that one thought is accessing all of the years of information, or individual programming that actually created and led to that thought as an evolution of information that says this is the most logical conclusion BASED on all the information that is already present and stored there. But what is that information? Because if you don't know then there is no way to really understand the reason why you are having a particular thought. The information there might be something that is harmful to you or others. For example, there might be information from a emotional experience that occurred during the first day of school, where you feared you might lose your mother, and so that shaped and influenced you into being someone controlling so that you can attempt to control and so keep people from ever leaving you so you never have to go through the same experience of sadness, depression, loneliness and insecurity that you felt. But because you are not consciously making such decisions and they are automatically happening, then you will simply react, and just act out your instinct, feeling about what feels right to do, not knowing the real reasons why. You will even simulate reasons why, to excuse your own behavior, such as: this is just who I am, or this is just how I have always been, or this just make sense to do, or that everyone does it!

 Accessing the information inside of you is crucial, and the information that acts as the base programming of your personalities, and self-definition, was formed primarily through childhood, where the information was being processed at a very high physical speed, just like how you learned your native language. Ideally, we find a way to again access the ability to absorb information, because we would be able to change the information that is inside of us. But, we first have to become aware of what information is present inside of us, so we can change. And perhaps we will find a way to become aware of all the information that is inside of us, so we can change ourselves. At the moment our current tools is to write out what is inside of us, to understand it, and then forgiving that information, so we can change it into something better for us and everyone. Then we can start living a NEW information, which you write out for yourself, that will replace you previous response and be your new response.

There is an intersection between programming for your personalities and the deep physical programming that regulates your heart rate and breathing for example. This intersection means that when you access personalities it can also influence and change you physical body parts, such as the heart or lungs. For example, you become afraid of someone who is so handsome or beautiful, and you feel inferior when seeing them. Access these thoughts and emotional experiences, will also access any physical programming which can be for example, your heart rate increasing, your breath becoming shallow. You neck feeling weak, and you tilt it to the side, and you hunch your back, and you tend to look down. Maybe your palm starts sweating, and feel trembling. So literally, your personality is changing your body in how it function and operates. Imagine, that for one moment the body was fine, and taking care of its usual maintenance, and digestion, and other daily tasks, and then BAM!!! Here comes this emotional experience and the body starts pumping more blood for no apparent benefit, and the muscles start moving and twisting in awkward and unusual positions. This creates an imbalance for sure, and it creates a strain. And if this occurs for many years, it will begin to shape the structure of the body and even weaken it to a point of compromise where disease can creep in easily. The information on the physical level moves very quickly, and it doesn't even require you think about anything in order to create the experience. Because the information is moving at the same pace that the body moves, which is at the fastest level. So its basically instant. So this layer of information also needs to be changed as well. It is also the same process of writing out the information, seeing it, forgiving it, and changing it. It is more challenging however because you need to do something different. The difference is to actually become aware of your body, and SIT within it, where you amalgamate, and join the body again. Where you move the body. Where you move the breathe, the heart, the muscles. To create again the stability that the body requires, and is its Baseline state, ideal for maintenance.