Yogan's Journey to Life

Losing your Purpose in Gaming https://www.facebook.com/events/813442582038134/ So in about 1-2 days, I will be on a hangout on gaming possession. While during this hangout I will be discussing possession of gaming, and the negative side effects of this addiction. I would like to focus on this blog particularly on a completely different point on my gaming experience. While there are lots of positive and negations attitudes I have towards gaming, there are some practical points that I did learn and found useful in gaming. In general my attitude towards gaming is a mix of shame, embarrassment, guilt, on one end, and on the other end excitement, thrill, enjoyment, and fun. For the negative spectrum, I have this voice within me that says gaming is childish, and shouldn't be done by adults, and makes people stupid, and is something that is a waste of time. Particularly because of this side, I would like to point out, what lessons I have learned and applied from the games I have play...

"We are all drug addicts. We are addicted to our minds, energy, thoughts." Drugs. Stimulation. Highs, lows. Delusions. Hallucinations. Addictions. Money. Imagine a man coming up behind you. Inserting a needle in your neck, injecting a drug. You feel high, good. Your high man! You feel happy for no particular reason! You don't know why or how! It's a drug man! You were drugged. It just happened. This happiness isn't real man! It's a drug. We have all randomly feel happy or sad. Imagine swallowing a depressant. You're depressed man! Why? I don't know! I just feel sad man. Why do I feel happy or sad? I didn't choose this! Who says I am to be happy or sad? Who decides? Not me man! So can this be real?! No man! It's not me man. I am an addict man! I want to feel happy or sad, man. I don't know how or why, but I want it man! Just make me feel sad or happy man! Do it to me, give it to me! I will do whatever man! Cars, sex, money, d...

Connecting with my dogs. I accessed my memories of who I was when I was very young. By accessing these memories I am accessing both who I was and who I could be. I have always had the potential to connect with people, animals, and plants. And I have done so in the past, during the years as a child. By accessing my memories of who I was when I was young, I can again do the same, and perhaps more. Because I was always limited in how much I connected with people, animals and plants, in my past. And now looking back I see that. So what I am seeing is the potential to connect even more. When I connect with plants or my dogs, I become silent, and I focus on myself, what is here. My emotions are not activated, and my experience of myself isn’t fluctuation, but instead it’s continuous and steady. There is a connection formed, one that is firm, and clear. I may enter the mind, which involves thinking, but I can bring myself back here. Entering the mind becomes obvious be...

  Which is better puppies or babies? Pick one. Which do you like more? Which do you love more puppies or babies? Which are cuter? Which one would you support to receive food, housing, and healthcare? Pick one? The most important question is: why not pick both? Can you really say that you don't want to give food, housing and healthcare to puppies and babies?  Vote for these initiatives in your local area. Support your local government to ensure that all children and all pets receive food, housing and healthcare 4 life ! #life4pets #life4children

Would you vote for all babies receiving food, housing, and healthcare backed by your country? All babies and children would receive food, housing, and healthcare. How much do the mothers and fathers love babies and children? Do you think the parents of your country would vote that every baby and child to receive food, housing and healthcare? When would you say that you became an adult?  At what age do children grow up? Would you vote for all children receive food, housing, and healthcare, until they grow up into an adult? I support that my government provides food, housing, healthcare of the highest quality for all babies and children. Vote for the Life4Children today!

How much do you love cute puppies and kittens?  Well, how much? Because how would you like that all pets everywhere have their foods, housing, healthcare paid for? Would you vote for that? Imagine, every single puppy and kitten, being guaranteed food to eat, a place to live, and paid for medicine and surgical care. How many people do you know that love their pets? How many people do you think would vote for that? If there were a petition for guaranteeing pets' life happiness, would you vote today? How quickly do you think it will pass?   I support my government to ensure the life happiness of pets by guaranteeing paid food, housing, and healthcare. Vote for the Life4Pets today!

So why is it stupid to party on the weekend? Well, drugs and alcohol are already stupid in themselves, and if you do something stupid every 7 days (a week), that's just routinely stupid. Drugs and alcohol have an accumulated negative effect on you, if you aren't aware of that, I suggest doing some research, including speaking to people who have directly faced these consequences: Alcoholics and drug addicts. I don't do drugs and alcohol for that reason, because I know they will harm me. Its sad that partying has been defined to mean drugs and alcohol. Because can you imagine a party without drugs or alcohol? Would you want to be there? Honestly? That would be a boring party... or so we think. Can partying without alcohol and drugs, exist? Yes, but instead of enjoyment and fun being derived from alcohol and drugs, you need to find another source. You would need to have fun with yourself, with other people. Haha, does that bore you? Does that prospect of having fun with your...

So naturally, following my previous post where I revealed who I am. Desteni is the most natural topic to bring up. Because it is who I am, that I investigate all possibilities, and so I didn't have resistances towards Desteni, at least not any more than for other things. It doesn't seem like a complicated subject. Desteni is just what happens when you have people with the same goal. If you think of all the groups that exist, even class projects, they exist for a purpose. So the same with Desteni. I don't feel a need to defend Desteni, or even explain what Desteni does. Only because its so obvious what they do and the groups purpose. I mean, they place it clearly on the website: "At Desteni we thoroughly research and investigate the essence of what it means to be a responsible human being. This research is done through the participation of everyone that is interested and dares to take on the journey of self-discovery. We share our findings through video, au...

Yogan Who am I? What is my story? So I am trying to define myself, and place myself into words, categories, and descriptions, such that it encompasses my whole life, and all of my life experiences. I have experiences that cover spirituality, new age, gurus, christianity, philosophy, psychology, academics, living in the United States, specifically Miami, Florida, Hispanic culture, the Spanish language, going to public and private schools, being a guy, being an introvert, having dogs and cats, having divorced parents that get along, having a brother and a sister, being 24 years old, having a bachelors degree in psychology, having lived in Portland for 4 years, while studying at Reed College, being a straight A high school student, feeling lonely/alone, having crushes, being in relationships, having had sex, wanting to be married with someone forever, not knowing what to do with my life, not knowing or being sure there is a God, also not even caring because I hold myself to my own ...