tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78858822139786683152024-03-13T23:23:39.177-07:00Yogan's Journey to LifeI am a person. No better and no worse than any other. I am on a journey to achieving my equality and oneness with all of creation. We are all creators of all that exists. Through our acceptances and allowances, things are the way they are. Self-forgiveness is a tool we use at Desteni to take responsibility and release the programs that we have created throughout reality and in this life. The physical reality is what is real, and we only have one life. So lets give it our all. Thank youUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger926125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-17290677883401981932024-01-07T22:37:00.000-08:002024-01-07T22:37:48.628-08:00Day 941 Real Love<p> From my drafts in 2023:<br /></p><p>Im looking at what Love consists of. It is powerful because it can get a man or a woman to have sex, to propose marriage, to conceive a child. It has thus a possessive quality. It is addictive, you always want more until you're fulfilled for a while, then it weakens in strength, causing you to find a new source of love. There is no choice regarding love. The quality of being powerless defines it. If your love leaves, you have no power to make him/her stay. </p><p>Given you don't have a choice regarding love, this spoils love. Because you can have a great person, yet you don't love them? Love then doesn't give an indication of how much you care for a person or how grateful you are for them. </p><p>I would like to write about real love now.</p><p>Real love is not something you feel to feel good about yourself. You feel the connection and responsibility to all things. You know that all is you. The matter is you. The material, the physical, on all levels. The atoms. The parts that make up the atoms. The organisms, the structures. All of it. And what gives life meaning is this. That we are all one and equal. And how we live this out is what gives us the power to create with reality. The sacrifices we make, the lessons we learn, the listening we do to understand deeper. What we suffer through. Seeing for ourselves what the meaning of life is directly. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-2292864995273873112023-11-01T14:24:00.000-07:002023-11-01T14:24:31.439-07:00Testing dictation. <p>I am writing this blog with dictation. I’m gonna see how it goes and I want to see how effective it is. Oneness and equality. Oneness and equality, oneness and equality. Oneness and equality, oneness and equality. What does oneness and equality mean? Oneness and equality is the fundamental principle of the universe. It is saying that you are me and I am you. We are one, and we are equal. All the life that exists is life. It is equally life no matter what form of life it is. Under the fact that it exists it is part of life. What is really interesting is that the philosopher Descartes his quote had been misused. “I think therefore I am.” he originally wrote that as part of the argument that I exist, not to emphasize the mind. And existence is the fundamental point that defines life and defines oneness and equality. Existence covers everything by definition. All that exists, exists. And the word life refers to how all is made of the materials of existence and the materials of existence, individually have their own life that they’re living. If you look at an atom, you can see the forces that are in play. You can see a different qualities and interactions they have with other atoms and other parts of existence. You can look at the microscopic realm, which refers to that which you can see with a microscope. You can see cells of plants and animal cells, human cells, bacteria, viruses, all existing, and away in their own world but of course they are part of this world, and even make up this world. now we consider the human layer of reality how humans fight because of the religious programming they were given as children, being told that you are a Christian you are Jewish you are a Muslim, whatever other religions that exists out of the hundreds. And what is interesting is that humans have choice and they have chosen to accept and allow the programming or sometimes they don’t choose to accept and allow it. Who do you think is more free?</p><p>The programming exists in all levels. Everything that you can think of, and imagine can be programming, for it is only limited by what the mind can perceive and describe through words, and create experiences, based off of feelings and emotions to define what we perceive and sense.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-49614166041252933842023-09-16T01:01:00.001-07:002023-09-16T01:01:33.676-07:00Pain<p> It is a part of life to hurt others. </p><p>A programmed statement inside of me is that I don't want to hurt anyone. That I will avoid actions that involve hurting others, including emotionally. One of things I avoid is rejecting others. I can't stand the thought of rejecting someone. </p><p>That's one of the reasons why I avoid dating. Because I can't stand the idea of someone falling for me, and me rejecting them, hurting them. I would feel guilty.</p><p>I hate rejection. I hate pain. I hate suffering. But all of that is part of life. Including me inflicting that on others and others inflicting that on me. so there's no need to hide and try to stop it from happening. </p><p>Thats also one of the reasons I have been quiet. Because I have hurt others with my words, and it was words they needed to hear but I hated myself for hurting them, even if it was what was best for them. </p><p>Pain is a part of life. And the truth hurts sometimes. To help another, you may need to tell them the hurtful truth. I would say its a guarantee that for each one, we will hear a painful truth. </p><p>Pain isn't bad. It is a message and communication that requires our attention. </p><p> <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-79685852344720457892023-07-04T00:40:00.000-07:002023-07-04T00:40:56.137-07:00Day 940 The nuance of speaking publicly on personal matters<p> someone was asking about the nuance of when you discuss something that involves other people in a public way. I would say that every word you speak is an act of creation. so you must be completely specific in everything you express and thus be taking responsibility for everything involved in that including the outflows and consequence. If you were lacking in specificity then that is your responsibility. We are all creators all the time. Whether we embrace that responsibility or not, it occurs regardless. Our very existence has an impact. And even when you die you continue to have an impact. </p><p>You can never escape the responsibility that comes with existing. You either own up to it or you don't. There is no in between. Do or do not. </p><p>You can always take a moment to reflect and choose what you will express. You look at why you are expressing something or not. Is it for yourself? Is it for others? What are you going through inside yourself. Your starting point determines what you are doing. If you are simply following the preprogramming then its a typical reasoning that involves separation, so predictable. If you are standing in principle then its about growth, overcoming your limitations and the hand you have been dealt.</p><p>The more work you put in, the more you understand. </p><p>When you take responsibility you are not blaming others. so if you talk about others it is only in explaining your own reactions to what happened. so that you may take responsibility for it. We can always overcome or approach situations in a myriad of ways, to break through the preprogramming. If someone is bullying you, you can make a joke. You can be unusually quiet. You can decide to leave. You can choose to have fun regardless. You are a creator, so create to the best outcome. Maybe you can find out how to break through to them. That is something i haven't had success in: to in a few words get through to a bully and have them see some part of what they are doing. But that would be ideal. A goal to strive to. </p><p>Ultimately, it is accepting that the results of what you say are multidimensional and there may be room for improvement. As you learn of the effects, you can take responsibility. You learn bit by bit what more you could have done, and how and why. The level of preprogramming runs deeply. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-38076531022704762552023-02-21T14:54:00.003-08:002023-02-21T15:47:45.011-08:00Day 939 We Deserve the Truth<p> Had an inspiration, and I'm going to write about it before I forget. </p><p>What I went through during the times I voiced my love for someone and they reciprocated, and they returned my love. The young years of life, where everything felt optimistic, where all people are good and kind, and that we all want to love. How someone who loves you can, can unexpectedly turn into a monster.</p><p>Things that I had to watch for then, and prepare. Someone freaking out, what you simply saying hi to them now. Now they completely ignore you, when before they supposedly love you. Well obviously that could not have been love, real love. It was instead a feeling of Euphoria. Love, real love, would exist outside the ideas of the mind, or the beliefs, or the feelings. It is something you see and understand in how the value of life of each person, of all beings, of all sized, shapes and form, equally exist in, and deserve care, recognition, respect, and attention. You see it through action, through your being, how you exist, the choices you make, the way you live. </p><p>Now its fucking scary, scary to not fully know anyone, and what they are capable of doing, saying, and changing. What they are capable of hiding about themselves, what they are doing or feeling, thinking... in their secret mind. </p><p>Blind optimism and hope is something that can exist before ruination, before slamming against the reality of people on Earth, the truth that we don't know how to love yet. We are a work in progress. </p><p>I felt so embarrassed that I couldn't see or anticipate or ever expect a person to turn the way they did. I wanted to die of embarrassment. I want to control or predict when it will happen. I don't want to risk ever approaching someone like that again. I want to protect myself. </p><p>I propose a balance, a balance between caution and optimism. Maybe we should have a new word for that. To approach someone with caution, and hope that there can be something here, something that can open up. Vigilant for their insanity to pop through, not risking anything that can't be lost. Patiently visiting. </p><p>A lot of the pain I felt was just being suprised that people can exist that way, and so the world of all people are kind, or good, and that can always shine through, that optimism was false. The losing of my perfect world. The betrayal of everyone around me. How come no one said anything. No warnings. No lessons. No guidance on how to approach love. No direction on what exists really in people. No attempt to bring down a optimistic view of the world, and instead only promotion of that very false view. The sting of betrayal. </p><p>I would regret ever raising a child to believe the world is sunshine and rainbows and that people can be trusted. I just wanted the truth. Simple. </p><p>I blame myself, I feel like I turned them into the dark side. That I caused their hate. Because they did hate me, they did ignore me, they did gossip about me. I must be to blame, is the feeling. But I am not. <br /></p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel embarrassed about not being able to perceive any person's strange, erratic, scary behaviors.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel pain, and hurt at society, and parent's and everyone promotion of a positive good world, and lack of real information on how people act, and what they are capable of.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel paralyzed in fear of what people can do. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty and blame myself because someone is hating on me, is targeting me, and trying to hurt me, and so I figure, being good people, they must have good reasons to act this way, but good people don't exist. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself, because someone else blames me. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate myself because someone else hates me. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-1937028681964557452022-12-23T20:39:00.003-08:002022-12-23T20:39:59.104-08:00Day 938 Mind Consciousness System Part 1<p> I remember something that someone said to me. When I spoke to them about growing up like shy and quiet, and how she responded well of course since people are fucked up in the head for the most part. And how I saw that, initially I was unsure of what she said, yet partially knew it was completely true. </p><p>When I look at the dynamic of introverts and extroverts, I see the possibility that introverts need time away from people because we are aware of how fucked up people are in their minds and we dont want to participate in the bullying of others, and making others feel inferior. Meaning that if all people everywhere were to be cool in the head, refined, aligned with life, completely healthy and sane, then there would be no such thing as introverts. That anyone you could approach would be amazing, kind, and fun and exciting to be around. Thus there would be no burden to bear with their mind.</p><p>So this is a possibility I considered today. So practically for the time being, introverts and extroverts exist. I cannot pretend to know how they exist fully and absolutely. But I can get a feel of maybe why they exist. Maybe. But on a practical level its awesome to say I am an introvert, and that many others can recognize introverts need time alone. Alone time is awesome. </p><p>Introverts then may be actually an indication of being more sane. Maybe. Or that extroverts are not judging themselves for what they are doing to others. I dont know. </p><p>Because the times I was around sane individuals, or more sane, I didn't have the same restrictions or feeling of tiredness as a I do now. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-68544022669786259992022-10-19T21:30:00.002-07:002022-10-19T21:30:49.076-07:00Day 937 The L word<p> I had taken in 2 cats in their early stage of life, 1 year ago. During this time I was able to witness how they act during heat. In heat the act becomes possessed. In heat means their sexual programming is activated. Their personality becomes taken over. The body become possessed. They lose themselves essentially. I did have them fix shortly after, for those worried about that. <br /></p><p>Now, this behavior is the same with humans. Except we are not aware of to what extent it exists. Its easier watching others go through it, to tell that something happened. </p><p>Looking at my case, One thing specifically I went through is falling in Love. What does that mean exactly? Comparing this to a simple desire for sex, which many men and women have, where they act on it, find someone at a party, sleep with them and leave feeling fulfilled. What I am discussing is different than that. Falling in Love, is where I become mentally obsessed with someone. Thinking about them, imagining conversations with them, needing them, feeling empty without them, feeling insecure, feeling an intense need for their attention. I want reassurance of their love for me. Whats the purpose of this? Its not sex, clearly its something that more stronger. While I have not reached that outcome, based on what I have gathered, it seems the purpose is to create children. Not just sex, but to impregnate, most likely within marriage. I bet that once the children are born the love disappears. Im grateful that I haven't materialized that. </p><p>It makes sense though. Love causes humans to make children with someone they otherwise never would. Similar to how after sex your senses come back, you wake up one day and realize the love is gone. This is a cold analysis of what is occurring. So please dont take it in a cold way. Meaning we all are going through programs, we are all not aware of fully what is occurring. And we are responsible for what has transpired, even in our awareness. Don't abandon children. </p><p>To be responsible means responsible for yourself and then responsible for others, what they are going through, their mind. </p><p>Therefore be aware of Love, RUN FROM IT WHILE YOU CAN. Something Bernard would have said probably, lol.</p><p> I suggest facing this Love point, and remove it from the equation. So that you can approach relationship with someone, as an agreement with full fledged communication, and responsibility for them and you. Be the creator, not the possessed. </p><p>And to correct use self-forgiveness, and tools of writing, as explained through Desteni. </p><p>Example</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by the program and feeling of love, where I have acquired a target of a person, which becomes the focus of an entire program that acts predictably and with precision and focus to create an outcome that has already been determined/prescribed by it, to create children. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-15464395797142006202022-09-25T18:13:00.001-07:002022-09-25T18:13:09.063-07:00Day 936 Recreate the world<p>In the transformation of the world, we will be taking on all points of society, and how everything functions everywhere. How animals are treated everywhere, in nature and on farms. How people are treated everywhere, in every country, in every home, at every age. The support all people will have access to at every age. Ensuring that all is cared for, all have everything they need, and all grow each day in ever expanding understanding and awareness of themselves and all that exists. </p><p>Because you can't have a sustainable society if its citizens cannot receive the support and understanding that the support from their lives comes from others giving them support. And so they themselves must continue the gift of life by giving in turn. </p><p> Today is September 25, 2022. And in Iran, about a week ago a young woman was murdered by religious zealot officers of a religious sect of government. Men who are brainwashed from birth to believe that evil resides in those who break the laws of their god, and that the righteous thing to do is kill the evildoers as their god command. They gained control of power, and maintain it through the submission of a large portion of the population who would rather live in fear than die tomorrow. Every person will die. It doesn't matter who you are, you are mortal. Death will come for each of us. Life though is about how you live and the choices you make that define your very soul: your statement to the universe that this is who I am. </p><p>Violence is not the best way to protest. Imagine if everyone in a country agrees to protest by not working, just staying at home and doing nothing. Yes the country would fall apart in a few days. There are many ways to protest, and get your demands heard. Its always tough when the murderous zealots can kill anyone in the streets. And yes killing the ones who will just continue killing forever is fine to do. </p><p>Whenever you can reach the organization and agreement, then a unified response forces the hands of anyone. For the group has the power. There are many ways to recreate the world, be creative. </p><p> </p><p> <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-32809140884779147182022-09-06T18:58:00.000-07:002022-09-06T18:58:34.455-07:00Day 935 I am Life<p> Who am I? I am life. I am all as one and equal. </p><p>This is the truth of all of us. It is a truth you must live for yourself, just like I do. There is so much in this world that will tell you that you are not Life, that you are not equal, that you are not responsible, that you are incapable of living this way, that you don't know what you are doing, that you aren't the one. </p><p>To that, all you have to say is I am life. It is not an argument you can win, except by ending the argument by simply saying I am life. You as life will inspire those who will listen to do the same. And you will equally be the target for others to blame. That is the nature of things. You never ever really convince anyone of anything, that they weren't already ready to hear/agree with. But you can show others things that they otherwise wouldn't get the chance to see. So you are free of the burden of deciding their fate, lol, its in their hands in the degree that it is. </p><p>Living this way speaking this way, is doing so with a target on your back, you will be persecuted. If you accept this consciously then thats all you gotta do, what will happen will happen. But what is certain is that you will continue to be Life. </p><p>Life is here, everlasting. Life knows itself. It is self-confident, it knows the deepest truths, it does what is needed, it explores the unknown, and spreads seeds of Life everywhere. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-53000911428603029852022-08-09T22:35:00.001-07:002022-08-09T22:35:29.262-07:00Day 934 Darkness within<p> I remember a blog i wrote like about 3 years ago. It was about how life is pain. Or how much pain there is in being alive. And its true that even moving around and in physically doing things, there is pain. <br />And something I remember about how those who never had to suffer much in life won't be able to make it in process. Since this process of becoming life in the physical involves facing so much in the mind and in reality, well the entirety of the mind and reality. To face all of that is tough. </p><p>So what I am seeing now is that I need to embrace the darkness, the pain, the brutality of the mind. To allow myself to feel it and remain here. Because I see myself as not having that difficult or painful life. I wasn't abused. I was treated fairly kind and nice by most people. And I was sensitive to the slightest disturbance. And I can see that others had a more difficult life experience. </p><p>But just because I didn't go through that, and got tough from it, doesn't mean I cant do something about it now. To toughen up. To turn this weakness of not being able to handle pain and suffering, into a strength or high capacity, or ultimate ability to face any amount of pain and suffering. I see it as simply a decision and embrace within me. A decision that says: I will face and feel any pain and I will remain. I will feel it all, and I won't change because of it. I will push for the things needed, I will do what is right/best for all. </p><p>I have gotten through the tough times so far by having a high self-esteem from walking according to principle. Knowing that I walked what is best for all, gave me that high sense of self. But that doesn't prevent or eliminate the pain. The pain of rejection, of insults, of attacks, of disrespect. They aren't polarities. They exist simultaneously on different levels. I can feel these pains and have a high self-esteem. </p><p>So I am going to turn this weakness of low tolerance for pain into a strength. I embrace it all here, in this moment.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reject the dark and seek the light.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strive to be good, and avoid the bad. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run away from pain of rejection. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to use pain against me, by holding it as a threat, to keep me in check. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-66978264891426578402022-08-05T22:32:00.000-07:002022-08-05T22:32:05.270-07:00Day 933 Words define you<p> So something that psychics can't see. Psychics gain their ability through a preprogramming. But that ability stops there. Intuition however, and being able to read into reality is an entirely different ability. Nay, its not an ability its a natural part of living, like breathing. It comes naturally to all who embark on the journey of self-awareness. Cause knowing self means knowing reality. </p><p>As you know yourself, through writing, and exploration, you see how you function. And that level of seeing develops. Its sight pierces through reality, just as clear and as easy as normally look at anything. It comes with intuition and common sense, portrayed as knowledge. Commonsense like doing what is best for all is best for all. </p><p>Psychics can walk self-awareness, its not mutually exclusive. I would assume, it would be more difficult, in various ways, but one in particular is giving up the power and the specialness, since if everyone can see into reality, and vision is available to all, commonsense vision that is, then their gift becomes moot. So with all power, such as money, the instinct kicks in. </p><p>The same goes for those with power of any kind in the system. We are equal and one. And those of the system will do whatever they can to make it appear, that we are not equal and one. That some are more special, and have more power over others, know better, have the right. Equality and oneness is the law of existence. Its the fabric of reality. Its not a belief or religion, its how life exists as. Belief and faith is reserved for manipulation and control over others, maintaining power. </p><p>When you know yourself, you have self-confidence. When you know that all is one and equal, it feels great. That knowing is what the system as people try to break. They try to make it about faith and belief. They try to say things like humans can't change, and that people aren't one and equal. Where knowledge as confidence serves Evil, essentially, for the purpose of neutralizing confidence in you, maintaining your slavehood. </p><p>It is a battle of words. A battle of definitions. Its a battle of knowledge, confidence, faith, and manipulation. Its a battle of oneness and equlity vs. separation. Its a battle of the mind consciousness system, all of the world today, money, control, and power, vs. truth, life, understanding, creation and expression. It is all on the line, with every line of words you say and live as definitions of yourself as words. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-86916136235533918222022-07-19T12:07:00.001-07:002022-07-19T12:07:10.554-07:00Day 932 Hero<p> Saving a lizard is obviously a best for all thing.</p><p>But the mind tries to take such a simple act as getting a glass cup, coaxing him in there, taking him out, the end, and make it into a way to divide, and assert itself. </p><p>It makes it about morality, about taking lives, killing, saving them, being a hero, what is right or wrong, suffering, mercy. Happiness, fear, suffering. </p><p>Its a yelp of a lady, a crying in sadness, complaining, despair, anger. Making into a drama, something to stir the voices, stir the fights, disturb reality, the waters of self. </p><p>When all you need is silence, and no other voice but your own. Doing, living and acting.</p><p>Rationalizing things into thoughts, the mind makes its move: its because we are the same, we both suffer. Its doing what is right, the right thing. Being a hero. Feeling good about myself. Playing the devil, by making it a disappointment when he die, sad, guilty, it all my fault its dead. Finding a way to hijack the situation to sour self, and one's water. </p><p>Fuck the mind.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into certain thoughts because of the basis I have accepted of being right, good, a hero, and saving others. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing morality as the mind rationality, instead of living morality as simply what is best for all and doesn't involve mental hijacking of myself by the mind. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-21317111784264714232022-07-17T17:19:00.001-07:002022-07-17T17:19:04.117-07:00Day 931 Death awaits us all<p> The Destiny for every life form is to stand as all as one and as equal. We are each other. None is greater or less than any other. Consciousness is what keeps us in separation, the constant barrage of stories, memories, programming, history carried and created constantly. With consciousness being halted, its clear that all is one and equal. If you take a breath, you can choose to stop your mind for a moment, and you can see this reality, this power that you have, and therefore responsibility to act.</p><p>Our expectations, our hopes, our dreams, are desires, don't belong to us, they come from somewhere else. If you can stop them in a moment, it means they aren't fixed. They aren't a holy sign that comes from some holy place inside of you representing your truest self. They are mental experiences, like a drug or movie, animated with a voice and images. </p><p>Life isn't so limited to be defined from another source other than itself. Life is here, always, able to create always, and always responsible for what is here. Life is here. </p><p>No single one of us can determine how others will walk and face this truth. Only with ourselves do we have such a say. And it is our unity with words expressed and lived openly that we find a growing movement of action and visibility. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear walking visibly.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear suppression from other forces.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think other things matter, when its clear we will all be dead, and left with nothing of this world, except for ourselves. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-39635076044130039612022-07-15T22:26:00.002-07:002022-07-15T22:26:41.185-07:00Day 930 rule breaker<p> Breaking the rules. I am not much of a rule breaker naturally. But to change one's program is to break the rule that one has followed. Without the ability to break rules, following a rule is simply being stuck. Its not a real commitment to follow that rule.</p><p>Part of the rules I want to break: we need radical change in the system. Those who abuse and cause violence, those that bully, that verbally abuse and attack, those that cause a nuissance, and harrass others, should be dealt with in a manner that ends their abuse. Be it jail, or a fine, or a warning. Whatever it is, escalation of punishment is completely fine, until they get the message. I am not talking about our current broken justice system, I am saying what needs to be done and carried out by us as a collective, as our responsibility. </p><p>Justice should be about reform and correction. As well as not allowing abuse. We cannot allow abuse to occur, period. No matter what it takes to end the abuse. </p><p>Money is the greatest vehicle of abuse, since money is literally life giving, and there are plenty that die from lack of it. So to hold so much while you don't need is literally the same as killing these people. That is the nature of money, blood soaked abuse. </p><p>Obviously those with lots of money didn't want people to be rule breakers. They don't want their authority and power questioned, threatened. Since money is an agreement, it can be circumvented. There are many ways to deal with these individuals. The dollar is no more real than bitcoin. It has no real value, except when we give it life, through our life. Our work, our sweat and tears. Work for bitcoin, spend in bitcoin, then bitcoin becomes real, and each person adds this value through participation. </p><p>Time to break the rule of those who have been abusing through money. <br /></p><p> <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-49671688606257142192022-07-15T22:15:00.001-07:002022-07-15T22:15:05.636-07:00Day 929 Good Person<p> I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be seen as a good person.</p><p>As a good person for walking process.</p><p>As a good person for how I write myself and present myself</p><p>As a good person for following the rules and principles</p><p>As a good person for the sacrifices I make, and how I conform.</p><p>Doing everything that is supposed to be done.</p><p>Pushing for self change so that I can be seen as a good person by others.</p><p>Feeling afraid of letting others down, or getting their anger or disappointment, for it is their eyes where I want to be seen as a good person. </p><p>Getting upset and angry when they get angry at me for being a good person. The opposite of what I wanted.</p><p>Feeling tired and saying whats the point, I made these changes and now they are changing. </p><p>I give up, on trying. </p><p>A good person is the problem. I would need to be a hardass at times. To tell people off, to tell them they are wrong, they are having issues and problems, they are being abusive. And that doesn't fall in line with being a good person. Its like the democrats, they are concerned with being good, and so won't call out the bullshit of the republicans. </p><p>Being good, is not best for all. Sticking to whatever is best for all, and doing it, being angry at time, being loud, being serious, being funny. Adjusting to what is here. Sticking to principles. Principles of Integrity, self-honesty, commitment. You have to lie to people sometimes for what is best for all. But always being honest with oneself is important. And always doing whatever is needed for your process or another is important. But developing that integrity, communication within a group, to share ones process, to move as a group is vital. And anyone who is pretending to walk process is just a parasite, a loser looking for some personal energy fix. And I feel bad in saying this but its true. And we would need to kick people out. You would do the same in your personal life. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be a good person.</p><p>I want to be what is best for all. </p><p><br /></p><p>When people would comment on the things I said. Undermined it, dismissed it. I would take it personal. But I don't have to. I will be what is best for all. And that is my goal, aim, and so I don't care if others see me as that or not. I live it. That means giving up this feeling that I am a good person. I am doing things right. </p><p><br /></p><p>i want to be seen as a good person. I want that validation.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be seen as a good person, and to get that feeling of goodness. To feel good about myself. To like myself because I was good according to another person. </p><p><br /></p><p>I am a good person. I am right.</p><p>Its like I am looking for that feeling.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for the feeling that I am right. That I am a good person, that what I said was right and good. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to when something bad happens in my life, to immediately see it as because I did something bad in my life and this is divine punishment. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to walk process just so I can be a good person.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-893669055701146692022-07-08T12:35:00.000-07:002022-07-08T12:35:29.972-07:00Day 928 Life is Life!<p> I fear taking responsibility.</p><p>I fear writing here. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking responsibility. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take responsibility by writing here.</p><p>I realize how easy it is to just live in the system, make money, and forget about responsibility.</p><p>My fears are not about survival. My fears are about responsibility. And I can see it everywhere. So many people just living in the system and playing the games. No one taking responsibility. Taking responsibility would be blog writing, would be committing to change publicly, through vlogs, blogs, through self-forgiveness, to participating with Desteni. </p><p>It has always been about the humans fear of taking responsibility. That is the only fear. The rest are just shadows and mirror illusions of fear obscuring this one real one. </p><p>I mean its so obvious. You have plenty of people who are living secure lives, who have access to money, and the one thing they will never do is to take responsibility for what is here. And the proof is right there in front of you. The words don't lie. </p><p>Fucking A, I mean even how they would respond to me, is proof of it. The anger, the deflection, the blame. Anything but to take responsibility, and thus living change. If you are taking responsibility then you show up to the conversation and you are figuring shit out. How can we solve things? </p><p>And one of the things that was so clear and simple: how people don't live their words, and how we pretend in conversations we know what we are talking about, or we gloss over the fact that we don't know what certain words mean, or the truth of things, and thus completely have no chance of ever reaching a solution to reality. If we are all living the words we speak, we will reach the same conclusions independently. </p><p>And its not even just fear. Its actually that I do not want to take responsibility. That is the truth of humanity. Even fear is used as an excuse, and invisible hurdle to overcome. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to take responsibility. </p><p>This just speaks to the selfishness that humanity has. ME ME ME. Only my life, what I want. BE FREE. And its in the secrets, the truth lives. Your secret thoughts, your secret wishes. That is where the truth of you lives. </p><p>How do you change? By taking responsibility. Taking the actions. Writing the blogs, writing the support. Writing and saying the self-forgiveness. The daily and momentary actions. In the moment is where the war rages. The secrets spoken secretly. </p><p>RUN AWAY. The mind restrategizes its approach. Creating pockets to hide. Where can I compromise responsibility. How can I corrupt it, twist it, and turn it against him. The mind is something sinister. </p><p>Responsibility lived absolutely.</p><p style="text-align: center;">Father</p><p style="text-align: center;">Custodian <br /></p><p style="text-align: center;">Guardian, Caretaker</p><p style="text-align: center;">Responsibility</p><p style="text-align: left;">Our definitions reflect whether our words align with reality. </p><p style="text-align: left;"> <br /></p><p style="text-align: center;"><br /></p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-64177461885887341542022-06-24T14:02:00.000-07:002022-06-24T14:02:00.980-07:00Day 927 A Rebirth<p>Bernard once asked to keep writing my blogs since they are quite effective and that he likes something to read. </p><p>I am finding that I am getting angry again. Angry in a way that I want to write, I want to make videos, I want to say what needs to be said to resonate in the world on our responsibility, what needs to be done, and what is best for all. </p><p>I looked in my last 2 posts into Love, and how it was said that Love was used to pacify or cancel out the thoughts of revolution in USA. And inside my body it feels that way. Where I can feel pacified and not wanting to do anything once love gets in me. Which is a strong contrast to this anger. </p><p>I would call this anger passion. And I would be worried about whether it was real or not. And that is what I told Bernard, and he said to keep writing, and that I would get it in years time. I am not sure yet. But I am sure that being pacified, being content and relax and not doing anything will only lead to things getting worse, never better. Its been said so many times that consciousness is a limited thing, a spec of dust compared to everything thats out there. </p><p>One day I will figure it out and see everything. For now, I am going to get angry again. And one thing that is different is that I wont allow love. I wont allow myself to go after love, to want love, to feel love within me. And I will be very wary and concerned about love. Because before I didn't question it, had no caution about it. I can say that my life went to shit when I went after love. </p><p>So time to do, act, write, speak. We are all one and equal, everything single one of us, to the most talented, the most charismatic, charming, intelligent, dumbest, laziest, angriest, slowest person. Our oneness and equality is in our essence, in the fabric of our being, like the fundamental material that is used to form all things in existence. Religions, cults, make believes, fan clubs for idols, seeing someone as greater, as more, as better, is a disease. It is breaking and ripping of our self-hood, to produce some energy to get high off of. Humanity is a bunch of drug addicts, starting with energy from the mind since birth. Within equality and oneness, no one is special, or more, nothing to break apart to suck energy off of. You are me and I am you. That is why the vast majority of people skirt away at the mention of equality. Cause equality is not exciting, and equality threatens your superiority, your love, your divine holy imagination mind fuck that a God Loves you. Love is an experience of self-interested selfishness that says I am special, I am more now, I am being given something to fix me. Fix indeed, addicts need their fixes. </p><p>How boring it is when every child is fed, and have their life secure. No excitement in that. In a life where all is well, and taken care of, what need is there for the Love of a God, providing you with gifts. It becomes irrelevant. When all is well, are you going to sit there and pray for a ferrari? That would be bloody stupid. The brainwashing is immense, to believe in such crazy stories, and its all underpinned with one word: love. And you see in everywhere, everyone is doing it. Everyone has their own churches of love. Be it Brothels, the internet, movies, celebrities. All go to ones that they believe give them love. And this was all deliberately designed, this society around this love point. And so it doesn't have to be this way, it can be changed. A child is born into this world is being impulsed. A child can be impulsed with what is best for all, commonsense, and not delusional make believe bullshit. </p><p>I was impulsed with the idea that God is love, and God loves me eternally. So I lived that, and sought to emulate that. I would speak in words of love to others. Like a missionary. That fucked me up. And it didn't have to be that way. A child can be spoken to with commonsense, and shown the practicality of what is best for all, the principle of it, and how it is mathematically the only way Life can exist in harmony. And they can get it and then they live it. Simple. The moment life becomes about love that is the ultimate mind fuck. Its a complete self-interested selfish mindfuck of a experience you are having in a world of your own making in your head. </p><p>It takes time and a lot of self-honest introspection writing and lots of self-forgiveness to get to a point of removing this impulse within you. If we do it once with this life, we can fix it or place the course of humanity on this path of correction, where it will multiply by factors and grow exponentially. It is slow at first. But the results are measurable and certain. So can you give up this one life for the sake of everyone, the well being of all the future generations of children? Join this movement. Join us. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-42523721700718050522022-06-18T14:37:00.004-07:002022-06-24T13:19:26.290-07:00Day 926 The Four Letter word Part 2<p> I had the expectation from Life, from just existence itself, that I would get in the future, my partner. And I expected this because I desired love. And like a child throwing a tantrum, I withdrew from life when I didn't get the love I desired. Where my motivation for a career as a statistician was the money that I believed I needed to attain love. Because I saw myself having my career and money, and thus being able to attract someone cause of it. I have no doubt that its possible because of the nature of man, everyone wants love, and money is a good bonus. </p><p>Within withdrawing from life, from trying, I have found myself without motivation. Within believing no way can I get love from another. For this outcome I am grateful. For it would have been far worse if I had gotten the love I desired. </p><p>Its amazing how much love rules us all. The desirability of love. And how we choose love over life any day of the week. </p><p>I know real integrity would choose life over love. I know that all of the ones who know, who have the position that grants them perspective. All the beings who have tried to make it, the masters who tried to master it, the ones who fought for a better life for us all... I know that they are seeing this and are hoping/waiting for us to get it. To overcome love. To choose life. </p><p>So much has happened. So many people have died and lost their chance. None of us has a real chance until we can get help on this. Its so important. Its the gateway to what comes after: Life. </p><p>When I look at reality I can see how we feel love when we are the winner of the game, due to the attention people give us. How simply attention became a point of love, which is why we act out to get attention. How jealousy stems from the desire for love someone else has. How despise/hate comes from being rejected of love. The list goes on. And how when this secret is exposed, the messenger will be attacked ferociously. </p><p>How blame, ridicule, and the attempt at embarrassing/shaming another, works because that target fears losing out on love. And that is why one my dreams and so for others, was to have one person that will always love you and then you feel invincible. Insane isn't it?</p><p>All of this is so obvious. And we can totally tell when someone is seeking love from us. Our personalities are built around the approach for love. To be a funny guy= to get love. To be confident to get love. To be cautious, shy= to get love without too much rejection. Becoming wealthy to get love. To become healthy, fit to get love. and more. To wear makeup for love. To be educated for love. To be a winner. To be a certain political person. To try out for different teams. To succeed. Everyone is doing it all the frickin time. To divorce to look for love. To have kids to look for love. To sleep around to look for love. It never ends. To have pets. Everything we consume, the books, tv shows, movies. The complete self-interest and devotion to love. God is experiences as love, the religion, the churches. Nature is made into love. Our jobs made into love. Just make believe</p><p>Its everyone. </p><p>Obviously porn, sex is about love. Drugs, addictions, smoking, food. </p><p> </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to need love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose love over everything</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and complain about not having love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to find love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to stumble upon love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be given love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fight for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to scheme for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate others for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control others for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to change myself and do whatever is possible to get love.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to harm others in order to get love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to study and get good grades for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make money for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to succeed at life for love<br /></p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose my career for love</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in my career</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and alloiwn gmyself to look for love in my daily life</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in imaginations</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in my memories</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in a bath</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in the spirits</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in nature</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in myself</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in winning a game </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in porn</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in Family</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for love in my purpose/future, so that what I choose to do will give me the most love.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a personality that will find me love. The service warrior, intelligent, helpful, kind, giving, doing the right thing, a good guy. Good with kids. </p><p>It as always been about love. <br /></p><p>Love has been a fundamental way of relating to everything in my reality. Food. The people. My parents. My friends. My time. Nature. Entertainment. Imagination. Games. School. Grades. Money. Careers. Woman. Relationships. Sex. Porn. Family. Children. In my purpose/future. In my personality. </p><p>The only reason why we want to be liked is for love. </p><p>All the people, all of their personalities, everything they do is for love. </p><p>To be continued<br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-89939565184535408752022-06-17T15:58:00.000-07:002022-06-17T15:58:01.889-07:00Day 925 The four letter word Part 1<p> Love. </p><p><br /></p><p>I know there is a place that I just wont go. And when I try to go, I shutdown. All the motivation and hoopla that I muster in order to get me there, just fades away. Just drops, I drop. And then I can't move an inch anymore, and I drag myself back to the things to pass the time, until I try again. </p><p>There's a really cool series of videos did, where essentially bernard was explaining the basic resonance pattern that every human is living, which is love. And he shows how every single person will inevitable choose love over everything else. Unless of course that resonance, that impulse is changed in ourselves, so we no longer feed, or go after that love. Love is the reason the hippies failed. That revolutions today fail because love has been stuffed in our faces in every way. link <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GQKiYTroY0">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GQKiYTroY0</a><br /></p><p>So looking at me, I can see how thats the case. How in being this revolutionary radical this past decade, has been put to a fizzle due to love. The love that I unwittingly kept returning to these years. In my music, and movies, in my tv shows, and in my relationships with people. I didn't think Love was that big of a deal, and was just another word to redefine and live differently. I was wrong. Its the ultimate move the mind made. </p><p>I chased for love and lost it. Moreover a coordinate effort to place myself in a position to be attacked from all fronts. Really the main gate keeper from me returning there is Me, and the love I still have. I am holding onto love within me. Cause like Bernard said its the one point we would choose over everything else, even my well being, even everyone here. Love says no to anger, no to conflict, no to outbursts, no to disrupting things. Its a pacifier. </p><p>Any therapist would have said love is cool. Woulda pushed for love. Any person would do the same. And they would attack anyone saying love is the problem, how loving of them. The extent of the problem is scary. </p><p>Love is the antithesis to Life. An experience no different than a drug, that is selfish. </p><p>The other day I allowed myself to call the person who broke my heart a liar. Something I know to be true, yet I dared not approach before. And I felt it, what I would have called anger. Yet it was the passion, the passion for truth, the passion for correcting another's self-deception. The passion for Life, the life in us all. The willingness to give up everything for whats right, whats best, whats needed. </p><p>I can hear the responses of those who gave themselves up to civility, to love, to giving up on themselves. And the only reasons why I fear to face them is just one: love. The hope/wish for civility, for friendship, for understanding one another. Yet when the monster comes out, to defend love, there is nothing that remotely resembles love. No one can truly be a friend, or dependable, or responsible completely, as long as they have this love holding their balls. How fitting.</p><p>So if I let go of any desire for love. Or rather the search for love. Hoping for love. That experience in your chest. That feeling good. Tha'ts where i can be real with people, help people, help myself. Really give my all. Cause all of the hesitation. All of the holding back is because of the desire for love still. I remember I would say that any person who had love as a child would not be a bad person. How wrong I was. Its in reverse. </p><p>How I went from fearless, to fearful of doing anything to jeopardize love. How I underestimated the mind's power over me through love. Yet here I am crawling out this hole. </p><p>The sad fact is that the group has the same issue. Love is everyone's last hurdle. The final exam. And I find myself questioning, what is the approach then with 7 billion humans, it would be impossible for the masses to change on this point of love. Surely we would have a handful of leaders who can do so. But then what. Shall we be teachers showing others the way. Is there a way to support others on this point of love. Is there a way to accelerate this. Its gonna take a lot of people, a lot of hands, as much help as possible in every which way. </p><p>Maybe its not a sad fact, just the reality we all face equally as humans. Resonantly Bernard said, love was being impulsed from everywhere. Yet we can impulse ourselves and this reality. Through breath. So perhaps thats the acceleration, that is what can shift things from it being so impossible to easy as pie. Its true I have been impulsing love, still living by it and repeating it. So being able to impulse whats best for all, over love. That point where we choose life over love. We choose the physical over love. It would surely help. I have no doubt it will remain a test/challenge. But maybe those younger could ace it, especially since I know I was being impulsed by love throughout my childhood. I obsessed over it more than others. So maybe, hopefully, it can be made easy for children. </p><p>One of the reasons why I would have kids is for them to have this advantage where I removing this point within me would mean my child would not have to face it. Cause I remember the instinct to want to love and be loved as a child. </p><p>Its ridiculous how every single point around us is impulsing this point. Tv shows, movies, stories. Instead of for example, solving problems systemically affecting everyone: Hunger, Abuse, Deception, Enslavement, Cheating. A movie about how such big problems were solves is not appealing, only because we are addicts to love. But commonsense, love is nothing. Real practical life in the physical is where problems and solutions to them exist. Its ridiculous. </p><p>And Bernard said in these videos, how we are so blind to it. The way I see it, there is no way we can truly change ourselves without resolving this point. We will always go back to love. So any change we made can be reverse by this point that holds our balls literally. <br /></p><p> <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-27042535667669835682022-06-04T18:40:00.001-07:002022-06-04T18:40:28.961-07:00Day 924 The mind is a fart<p> The mind creations inside ourselves is a byproduct, like a fart. It holds no power. It is our creation. </p><p>So its like a fart. </p><p>So farts is a byproduct of the bacteria breaking down food in your digestive track. It is gas, like carbon dioxide or some other gas. We create an experience inside ourselves like fearing something, and we get so worked up, and make it such a big deal. And the experience we create in ourselves is energy, and that is like a byproduct. We experience it. We experience the muscles contracting, and the physical sensations. But its not real. Its something we made up. And just like a fart, we can release it, and the sensation goes away. And that is the case for the entire mind. The mind is a fart. Just let it go. </p><p>I accept myself. Because I can. Its a decision to say that my self-confidence comes from me, and not anywhere else. My acceptance and confidence comes from me. So when I write, when I speak. I do it. And I do it with confidence and acceptance. I am the creator, the words I write come from me. </p><p>I can say whatever I want. And I am responsible for what I say. I am responsible for myself. Whatever I do or say is my responsibility. I can create myself, and create the moment I am in. </p><p>I feel like on my own I dont have that same level of confidence when I was with a group of people. Because its like a personality I think. And personality is not real. So on my own I default to my personality of not being confident. But I can be aware of that and change that.</p><p>Cause the mind is fart, all I have to do is to actually live and do the things and say the things I would do, except as myself alone. And that is in a way truer confidence cause its not dependent on others. It is independent confidence. And that good too cause in a group you want as many independent confident people since you will have conflict at times in the group. </p><p>And to make a group of friends work you need those who will try to bring people back together. And that requires confidence. </p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-59496222386426533112022-06-02T10:41:00.004-07:002022-06-02T10:41:21.021-07:00Day 923 RISK<p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">RISK
Author unknown </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To laugh is to risk appearing the fool. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto"> To reach out to others is to risk involvement. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto"> To love is to risk not being loved in return. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To live is to risk dying. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To hope is to risk despair. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">To try is to risk failure.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto"> But risks must be taken,
because the greatest hazard in life is to do nothing. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">The person who risks nothing,
does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave,
they forfeited their freedom. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Only the person who risks can be free
<br /><br />This above poem was written in the old desteni forum. Dont know who wrote it. But it was significant for me, so I saved it.<br />I am in a position where I don't want to risk anymore. And I am pushing myself to risk again. To go after deep meaningful and well connected relationships with people, where you can express yourself fully, wholly, without a second though or guess about it. A person who is there to support you really, and has taken responsibility for their own mind shit, and thus if they react to what you said/do they will instead take it within themselves to work through. So healthy and awesome realationships.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I am scared. And I will risk facing some things. I risk being cheated on, lied to. I risk being gossiped about, having my secret/private words spread around. I risk being humiliated, such as gossip that is based on lies. I risk someone wishing to take revenge on me.<br />It has happened to me before.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I was cheated on. The girl I was with cheated on me with her ex. And she wasn't sorry about it. <br /><br />My coworker spread lies about me to get me fired, and it worked. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I refused to get into anger and revenge. But since then I wondered if I should have done something or said something.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I refuse to be corrupted. To get into anger and revenge. Since I do want to love, to express, to include others, and help them. To walk this path, I risk betrayal, and humiliation. But in my heart I am happy. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">When I speak of the abuses others have done onto me, I risk others not believing me. Doubting me. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I risk the trust others have in me. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I risk losing others, by firstly gaining their trust, and having them in my life.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I have lost others, for no reason. Nothing in particular I did at all, and for no apparent reason. A part of me wishes there was a reason for it, cause then I could control it. But just like death, a person can just leave out of the blue. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">But the joys, the good times, the laughter, the trust that is built, the connection and sharing is worth it.That is the foundation of life, where 2 or more join together and create a moment together, that happened.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">There isn't anything else left to say. Just get out there and live. Try. Fail. Risk. Win. And Enjoy.</span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Breathe. And Repeat. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">And just so its said: No one wants all the bad things to happen to you. But you also want to get the wins. So push for that next win. </span></p><p><span class="d2edcug0 hpfvmrgz qv66sw1b c1et5uql lr9zc1uh a8c37x1j fe6kdd0r mau55g9w c8b282yb keod5gw0 nxhoafnm aigsh9s9 d3f4x2em iv3no6db jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v b1v8xokw oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Also realationship is an awesome spelling of the word<br /></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-22657477596012613622022-05-04T10:13:00.000-07:002022-05-04T10:13:13.813-07:00Day 922 Abortions<p> The baby doesn't matter. The fetus doesn't matter. A baby while cute, is empty. The parent, the adult is a person, with a vast range of experiences and memories, that which a baby can't and doesn't have. A baby will over time take in their environment, take in the information, and the programming for better or worse. </p><p>A parent, who currently in our system, makes the money and thus provides for the child, does have the final say. A woman has hundreds of thousands of eggs in her that could become babies. Those are fucking little cells, are they gonna have hundreds of thousands of babies? This physical reality is matter. Life is everywhere in everything. For a baby to live it has to kill and eat thousands of other things, all those cells. </p><p>If you want to take this into religion and god, the first sin of man is man believing that man is more or less than anything else in existence. The separation from life, from all, as one and equal is the original sin. </p><p>Man is a collection of memories and experiences inherited from multiple generations. Autonomy or real life isn't inherited, it is lived through determining who self is in relation to ALL that exists. Every point that exists, you have an effect or relationship with it. </p><p>Parenting is a calling, not a duty or requirement. Babies are not prisoners/slaves of someone else's mistakes, let them go. There is no fucking heaven or afterlife or god to judge you. But what there is is life everywhere that is 100% aware of everything you do and everything you have done. Life that doesn't judge you as good or bad, but can see you judging yourself and others as good and bad constantly. They see a human lost a thunder cloud of thoughts ravaging your spirit and your body. Morality is a joke when we only look to do the LEAST by doing no harm, instead of doing the MOST in what we give to life. </p><p>Women has a base programming that protects babies. If a women gets an abortion, its still an experience they never forget and they will think of the baby that could have been. If you love something, somethings you have to KILL it, because that is better than it being alive. If men can't put their shoes into this position, they should be silent.</p><p>I'm sorry for the needless suffering, but one day it will end. Life will be born one day, for once and forevermore. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-21676052869881170182022-05-02T22:34:00.000-07:002022-05-02T22:34:24.224-07:00Day 921 The people I really hate<p> The people I really hate are those that try to hurt others either physically, mentally or emotionally, and especially those who target me. I can see the faces of them making jokes about the deficiencies of someone (me) and hollering. Like the only real enjoyment is how mad I get. Bullies. </p><p>The enjoyment of torturing another *me. The picking on. The taking advantage of my kindness and silence. Piling on and never stopping even when I tell them to. Literally their enjoyment is seeing suffering. Saying the words of derision. Making fun of me being me. Making fun of me living and expressing as me. </p><p>And especially someone who is a bully who says/pretends they are walking process. It makes me want to give up. To lack that basic component of caring for others. </p><p>I let bullies win, and they know it and sense it. </p><p>The people I look up to, I know they wouldn't stay silent. They would say exactly what was needed. I just hate them so much. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let bullies win, win by me keeping silent about what they said, which is what they picked up on about me in the first place.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel afraid of bullies</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear hurting the bullies feelings or antagonizing them.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that bullying is an act, as an extension of a specific personality/behavioral program, which is one of many programs of an individual. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take on the role of a victim through remaining in silence.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live silence as a program, instead of as an expression.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to enter into silence not through my choice as a living expression, but as a reaction to a situation, which specifically in this case is some bullying or insult or antagonizing approach to me. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I have to behave as the bullying is done, or with insults, or anger, or shouting, instead I can express in many ways, including being witty, smart about it, to the point with support, direct, playful, or other interesting ways.</p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in silent torture, not wanting to fight, and also not wanting to forgive. </p><p>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to move on. </p><p>I forgive bullying.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-77226023242367956632022-03-31T13:37:00.002-07:002022-03-31T13:37:20.291-07:00Day 920 Life doesn't exist yet<p> The mind is dumb. The movements it makes is fruitless. The stories it conjures up, for naught. The reason for its existence, vile. Either vile for its act of slavery, or vile because the human being is so vile without the mind limiting it. Vile either way. </p><p>Compare that to physical living. Empty mind. A physical body, a physical form, a physical life, with physical pleasure, physical work, rest, purpose, movement, creation, play, communication. </p><p>Giving life all physical bodies everywhere. The life of dignity, access, creation, self. </p><p>Oh how the self of the mind has taken over, the self. Like an evil twin, a mirrorverse hiding away the reality.</p><p>How much of what is said is part of the grand cover up, the grand conspiracy, the illusion over this reality, that all is normal and well. Hiding away our bodies.<br /></p><p>Real choices, real actions, made within breath and by one self. Not a blob of emotion and feeling. The mind is a voice whispering in your ear about all the problems and issues you have with everything. How is that not evil? What more do you want, for it to grab you and force you down an aisle. Isn't it alarming enough when you are nudged along a certain path, while all the while you weren't in control, you weren't really seeing what was going on. </p><p>It should be alarming. It is dreadful and dangerous. What is the essence of your life, what is the culmination of you? What are you? A fantasy, a story, a belief? Are you here? This a grand emergency, for all these people, all the human beings, so lost on the same track towards devastation. A few can teach, and some will learn. Examples are needed. Death is certain, life isn't. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7885882213978668315.post-90787749114292150802022-03-29T21:27:00.003-07:002022-03-29T21:27:36.121-07:00Day 919 Absolution<p> So in a way continuing from my last blog, except looking at it from a view of placing expectations on myself. So my parents places expectations on me as becoming a great spiritual teacher. The way they would treat me and talk with me, telling me directly about my great insights, and how in my astrology chart I was meant to uplift people spiritual and be a great teacher for humanity. My name Yogan was from a story book that was new agey about a guy sent to earth to do just that. So I accepted this narrative. Just like how we all accept and allow all that the mind has told us and said what we are, and also similarly what others tell us too, which the mind just repeats to us doesn't it. </p><p>Acceptance and allowance is what we all do aint it the truth?</p><p>So preprogramming or not, as a child with the platform to speak and to observe, its very obvious the things people are going through. And since I was encourage to find the truth and to help others, that is what I did. Anyway could do that or be that way if they do it. <br /><br />Just like how children are taken into becoming shaolin monks and raised that way. We are a product of environment. Luckily for me, I was given freedom to see and decide for myself. <br /><br />As it relates to expectations, I feel responsible for others. I feel responsible for how others turn out, when in fact we are all just self-responsible. We aren't responsible for others. And the mind tells me the opposite sometimes, and others disagree with self-responsibility and tell me I am responsible for others. And inside myself I feel guilt, because I was raised in the idea of being a teacher and being responsible for my students. I remember a story about how humanity gave up their self-responsibility by saying someone else, like the king, the president, or the leader was responsible for them. When in fact self=responsibility means that you are equal and one to every power, every person, and every outcome and effect everywhere. Being responsible for everything is not the same as someone else saying that you are responsible for them and their situation and their outcome. Your not. A person is either going to reach their potential of a self-responsible being or they won't matter. It literally doesn't matter what happens to them. Its like an ant that dies. Everything will die anyway, but only some things actually live and only each one alone determines that for themselves, and not for anyone else. And there you have freedom, and peace, and absolution of guilt or blame. </p><p>So no I am not responsible for anyone else. Only you or that person can live that for yourselves. </p><p>So I don't blame my parents. I am simply taking self-responsibility for myself, and for what I have accepted and allowed. That is all. <br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0