“…simply make things better for someone else, as if I were to be born again, and that someone else, and it doesn't have to be me, but it could be someone like me, that they would have a better life than I had, that everyone was better. There is something seriously wrong with everyone, and that is something I observed when I was very young. We are the problem, and we need to become better, because we are fucking everything up.”
“So this is who I am. There is something seriously wrong with everyone and we need to fix it, if not for us, then for the future generations."
"Everything I have done in this life, and everything I will do, is for this purpose.”

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Honesty and Idealism

The Ideal world. What does it mean to be an idealist in this world? To be an idealist, according to me, is to have the ideal set within you. Where your ideal is your honest ideal. It is not the ideal that conflicts with who you are on a deep level of self, really want. And on that level you want what is best for everyone. This ideal is in fact the same for everyone in principle. There are slight variations in wording and phrasing, but the essence of it is the same message.

What is my ideal world/situation. Ideally everyone is taken care of, and everyone has the willingness and the motivation to care for their individual self and that of others. That the product of everyone being cared for is done through everyone caring for their individual self and others. Now, the question is how do we make sure a world possible? You obviously need to start with yourself, and those who are already willing to become such a person. That you assist and support them, and you assist and support yourself to become such a person, where you are willing to put forth what is best for you, and what is best for another, over other points which are not what is best. This will require understanding how and why you became the way that you are now, who doesn't do what is best for you and others. This is commonsense.

So what is interesting is that when you are honest about the ideal life, living, that you naturally gravitate towards making the possibility real, or at least I do. So that is why I am an idealist, where I haven't fully given up on the ideal world. Yet, I do sometimes forget the ideal. That is why I am also not an idealist fully, and why others in the world are not idealist.

Idealism has a negative meaning in the world, as someone who has dreams that are too lofty and impossible to create. This is the meaning placed/given by those who have given up, either partly or fully on making this world BETTER. So here I am showing you the truth of the matter. If you hold what you ideally would like to create this world to become, then you are simply go after the best possible version of the world. That is what the word Ideal is meant to represent and mean. What it is you honestly would like to create. So be HONEST.

Now in all honesty, the point that is often misrepresented in the ideal, is actually what happens often, meaning that idealism is not taken into actual living and application. Meaning that to manifest your ideal world, you are going to need to start somewhere, and you are going to have to dedicate much of your life to such a goal, and you are going to need to work with others, because the world is big and there is much that needs to be done. So ground yourself, ground your ideal, and ask specific questions like how am I going to actually make this happen?

Also, some people abuse the word ideal, by speaking about how they would like to be wealthy and healthy, while forgetting about everyone else on the planet, besides a few loved ones. That is an abuse and such a reality isn't possible, and such words are spoken in dishonesty, as that is not what you honestly want. You cannot honestly want others to suffer while you rejoice in wealth and happiness, that is not possible. So the KEY here is HONESTY.

So create the ideal world here for YOU and for EVERYONE. Don't give up, be a practical idealist. Be HONEST.
I - Deal

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Life will find a way...

The world is a tough place. But there is a promise that things can get better... if we make it so. Realistically, most people out there won't help in some endeavor that will actually change how life is. Most people are profiting from how life is not, either financially, emotionally or personally. But there is a promise that things can change, and that is given by a few people. These few are willing to help, and willing to learn and become the change that is needed.

So things aren't so bad when you look at it. At least you got a chance. And we each have that chance. I mean you are alive, right? You have a chance. Its better to have it than not.

Life will find a way, because WE will find a way.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Analyzing fear reactions to Paris Attack

So this blog post is not about the violence that occurred in Paris. Instead it is about our reactions to it.

So the way I see it, the Paris attack created a mini war situation. Meaning that the explosions and shootings is what happens in war.

So one question is why are we afraid when we hear what happened? Because, for me, when I look at people living in war situations, how come we don't feel the same fear when we hear of 200 people dead in Syria, or Afghanistan, Iraq, etc... Why don't we experience the same fear? The answer is simple, because it occurred in Europe, in a first world country and city. Because the fear you feel is a fear about your own safety. So what you feel now is about compassion or caring about others, but is a point of self-interest and survival. Because if you did in fact feel compassion for others in war situations, then we would feel the same way for the wars that are going on now in Africa, and the Middle East, and elsewhere in the world.

A second reason why we don't react to other places is because the way that other deaths, shootings and bombings are reported. So typically other bombings and shootings outside the first world countries are not reported and when they are they are not reported with such detail and specificity, and you don't have world leaders pledging support for those victims. So this shows how we are also manipulated by people sounding sad, distressed and saying all the gruesome details about what has happened. So if you can be manipulated and scared by a horror movie, you can bet that you can be manipulated by how people speak, act and what they say on the news.

So a fundamental question here is, is the lives of the people in paris more or less than any other life on earth? Because that is how we are acting. And really, as I pointed out, we are not reacting to the loss of life, but our own self-interest to keep ourselves safe. So in essence we are holding our individual life as more/greater than anyone else's.

So this blog post is not about saying to not take care of yourself and protect yourself in an emergency, because in reality there is no immediate threat to your life. But in the mind, the threats is perceived through the images and sounds perceived and that is taken into thought, memories, and so personalities, and all of this is happening on deeper levels of awareness that most people don't have access to. So it is important to understand how you work so you are able to be effective in dealing with your real world situations, and create the reality that is best for all. 

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

What is purpose, money?

Money
Money
Money is something difficult/challenging to work with. It is one of those top things that possess people in general. Another one of those things is romances/sex.

If you observe people, you can see how people are morphed and changed when making money. That how they become and change with making money carries into their personality, in such a way that it is always present in their life. It might involve becoming hard, tough, harsh. It may involve becoming stressed, nervous, worried, anxious. And it will eventually manifest in their bodies, in the coloration of their eyes, their skin, in their facial complexion. It will change how they walk, talk, move, and lack of sleep. It can possess your thoughts, your imaginations, desires, and memories. You can self-reflect to see how true this is for you.

Money is one of those challenges in life that must be faced and overcome. Facing and overcoming it doesn't necessarily mean becoming rich/wealthy. No. It means being able to stand in front of money, whatever the situation may be with money, and standing stable, calm, sure, with understanding/awareness. That means money doesn't affect or change who you are. And this is the end goal, being able to work with money and use it as a tool for what is best for all.

In observing myself, money has come to define everything I do. This means that even when I am not making money, my experience of myself is still defined in relation to money. And that my relationship with money extends into my education, where grades were the money I worked for. And money has come to define work, as well as self-value, self-worth and self-definition. Where if I am doing something and not making money, I automatically resist that, and feel that I am lacking value. And so too, when I am presented with an opportunity to make money, I jump into that quickly. The fact that it is so widespread in my daily life, goes to show how powerful and developed this money system within me has become, with its history extending into my schooling years.

What is interesting is that when I see who I am in relation to a work/job if I didn't earn any money, is that I become more creative, expressive and aware. This means that this money system within me actually impedes me from producing the greatest creation possible. And ironically, even potentially making money. Not only that, because the money system uses emotions/feelings to fuel it, it also leads to a deterioration of my body and so my health. Thus the money you make while living as the money system is spent later on for your body/health anyway. So living this way actually makes no sense from all sides, even the money side.

So there are various emotions and feelings that are within the money system. These include feeling happy, joyous, content, complete, fulfilled, at peace, relax, fine, okay, resting, fun, excitement...
They also include having emotions of anger, stress, annoyance, jealously, resistance, hate, giving up, hopeless, powerless, resentment, irritation, overwhelming, sadness, etc...

You also may have definitions that you are only worthy if you make money, that making money is the only important thing, that you have to drop everything else and find ways to make money, that your life will end without money. Sometimes too, there will be an illusion where you actually believe this to be true even though you have people in your life that would support you and help you, and that there are other ways to live, but you don't see them. Because when you practically look at and assess your life you will see another way, and that by taking care of other points which don't earn you any money, you are actually bettering your life, and ensuring your future. There are many things that are done daily that don't earn money, yet they support you. This includes self-introspection/self-support, eating food good for you, taking care of your body through cleaning, doing some stretches/exercise, helping out your friends/families.

Money is currently set like a trap, where you become blind to what actually supports your living. This means the people in your life, the people you interact with, the environment you interact with, the physical earth, and everything that is here in it. There is so much on this earth that is done, without earning money. From how trees recycle carbon dioxide into oxygen for example, or how they grow and give their bodies to be used for food. And also parents, who many times, not always, support their children to grow.

Money is not something to live for. When you find some purpose/reason for existing, then you will push what it takes to make it happen. This is something self-honest, and is partly a decision but also a recognition of what is already here. Money can be used to support a purpose/reason, but it can never be the purpose/reason itself. We are currently as humanity, living a self-definition that money is our self-value and self-worth, that it is something to live for. We as humanity have forgotten that Life is found here outside of money, and that money is only one part of a million different parts of existence. We have gotten lost inside of our own experience when it comes to money. And this is why most of us are still trapped with money because we haven't recognized the Life that is already here.

So stop your experiences with money, and create/recognize who you are and who you are meant to be.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my self-worth, self-value, and self-definition in relation to money, no matter the amount I have.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my entire life, everything I do and don't do daily, in relation to money, where I feel good when earning money, and I feel bad when I am not earning money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define doing work as good, and doing work for money as good, and to define having a job, and working outside the house as good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live for my purpose/reason for living, which is Life, and the creation of something that assists and support the development of Life on this planet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand that there are things you can't buy with money, and they are essential to Life, including friends, family, people you can depend on, the environment/nature and the processes they undergo and gifts they provide, and yourself, your passion, your self-creation, and self-development. Money can only support those things, but it can't buy them. They are only received through your effort, recognition, commitment, honor, regard, and respect for those things, and for yourself.

When and as I see myself changing my experience of myself when it comes to money, my daily living and my work/job - I stop and I breathe - I realize that I do need money, but that it doesn't mean that I must only work a job, have a business or ask for help, because I may see new ways and different ways to ensure I have my basic necessities taken care - I realize that money doesn't fill self-worth, self-value or self-definition, that it merely a practical tool, like a hammer, which I wouldn't define myself according to a tool like a hammer - I realize that to change the world, we are going to need more than just money, that we need people who know how to use money responsibly, that are able to push for the change need through their words and actions, and are the examples we look up too, where who they are as a person comes first always before money - I realize that there will be those who we are going to support with money as they are the front runners and the faces of the change that is needed - I realize that my self-development is equally as important as making money - I realize that I don't need a system to change me to become someone who can make money. I can already make money, and I don't need a system to tell me how - I realize that defining myself according to money has been one of the worse mistakes I have ever made - I realize money doesn't buy freedom, that freedom is something that is already here and something that must be seen/recognize as a part of who you are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of one day waking up and not having any money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear spending time on things which don't earn me money, because I fear one day not having any money, so I think I must spend all my time making money to prevent that from happening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to find fear valid, if I believe that it will prevent bad things from happening to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe fear is a tool I should use to motivate me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing emotion and feelings to motivate me to make money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use emotion and feelings to motivate me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, recognize and understand the value of myself as Life being the point of motivation, where I move, and create what is best for everyone.

Thus I commit myself to use money as one tool among many tools, recognizing that it is separate from me and not essential to Life, but is serving a large part of survival currently, which means it must be realigned to make sure it no longer has an effect/determination on practical decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry and irritated with money, because I believe I have no power and control or say in whether I make money, because I must to survive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that making money is the only way to live.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame everyone in the money system, because things are currently in a situation where most people are stressed and tied to money, and I believe that they believe that things can't change.

So what I am seeing is that there are many different ways to bring about the change that is needed. Money will be a part, but I don't see it as the only ingredient. Another part is people, because without the people to make the change happen and do the effort, money is useless. And too, it is in fact people that do all the labor that you buy with money. So in the end/first there is people, and money is just a way to force someone to work/do something for you because they need to provide for themselves. However, if you make a friend, then they would be willing to do the work that needs to be done. Because would you have a better result from someone that does the work because they want to, or because they have to in order to survive? Who would you trust? I mean, if you look at examples in the world, we have many people that do the bare minimum, but when you pay for a service, do you really want the bare minimum or the best? That is commonsense.

So when it comes to making money/ a living, if you step on everyone around you to get there, then you will simply have a lot of money, but no one there that is willing to support you. There will be those that support you for the money, but that only goes so far. You can't buy relationships, you can't buy trust, integrity, honesty, etc... Money is limited to a very specific set of outcomes. But there is so much more to life that is available to live, that can't be bought through money, they must be lived yourself. So use your money to invest in the outcome that is best for everyone. That decision is priceless.

So what I am seeing now is that this world system is build on people, not money. That to change this system we need to unite a large number of people, not to collect a large amount of money. However, by uniting people, you are bringing their money and skills to the table. Thus it seems very important to find a way or ways to bring people together. 

What the world needs is negotiators/diplomats, not warriors. We have had enough war, and what we need is understanding, communication, and coming together on the common ground we stand upon.

Monday, November 2, 2015

Are you continuously creating who you are?

Understanding your emotions and feelings is a tricky thing. It requires time to investigate them, to understand why you are feeling a certain way, to see whether it is something you really want to feel, or to see whether it actually makes any sense to feel that way. But if you spend the time to understand them, you gain the power and ability to change them into something better that is an expression of who you are.

Sometimes you will find that it doesn't make any sense to feel a certain way. Like with feeling irritated with having to wait for something/someone. Because you self-honestly know that feeling irritated while waiting doesn't make any sense, even though you may have excuses and justifications for it.

And when you do change how you feel, and stop certain emotions/feelings, your life can become better, where you actually gain back the power to create your life exactly how you want it, and become the exact person that is the best version of yourself possible. And this is something you self-honestly know and create.

I understand it may seem scary to decide to stop feeling a certain way. But consider the alternative where you continuously feel a certain emotion, such as anger, irritation, hate, sadness, without end, without stopping, forever. So to me, it seems much better to actually be the one that decides my fate. So are you someone that has already been created? Or are you continuously creating who you are?

Sunday, November 1, 2015

To care is scary

To care is scary.....

it is scary because you have to give up freedom. To care means to be a servant. Imagine or remember caring for something/someone. You had to support them. That is not freedom, or free to choose or do what you want to do. That is being there for them, to support them, care for them.

If you want to be free in every moment, then you can never care for someone, or have them ever trust you. Because to care for someone and to gain someone's trust means that you are committed to them. Being committed to them, means that you are not free to break that commitment.

Freedom then is overrated because obviously, breaking commitments/promises, is not something desirable for you or for those around you. You want to be surrounded by people you can trust, that are dependable. You want to be a trustworthy person.

For some reason, fear exists when it comes to losing freedom. Even if that is the freedom to abuse and to break promises/commitments. Freedom then is something not so desire-able. Do you desire people around you that are free? or people that are committed to protecting, serving, preserving, enhancing, assisting and supporting Life everywhere? Who do YOU want to be?