The Self is the key. You are the key. If you want to make things better, focus on yourself. Do you have a relationship with yourself? Are you able to hold yourself and know yourself? Do you know what you are feeling? Do you know what you are thinking? Are you here with yourself? Do you Know yourself?

Self is the Key. You are the Key. You have the power. You are the power. You need to know the power. You need to know yourself. You need to know who you are right now in this moment in what you are thinking and feeling. And you need to start stopping whatever it is that is not best for you. You need to start stopping that which is harmful to Life.

Be the Self that is Free from all limitation, pain, abuse, destruction, and full of creation, ability, and potential. You start becoming through self-forgiveness.

Would you like to have a relationship with Your self?

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

day 88 - Facing another challenge

Real world challenges. Picking a career.

So I have received my liberal arts degree in psychology. I wish to further my studies to strengthen my position and influence in the world. I have been primarily trained in researching and overall critical thinking and problem solving. One thing college does not teach you or show you, is how the mind functions. This I am learning with Desteni. I have my mind of course, and I can observe it. I can also stop participation in it in a moment. I can move myself in the physical. I can breathe. I can stop participation in energies, in a moment. I can also participate in  the mind, but this is something I do not want to do, because it will strengthen the mind and give the mind more power to decide who I am and what I do/participate within. I notice that every time I allow a thought, the mind gets stronger. I also remember that every time I say no, I get stronger, and I take more responsibility. I notice it is better to not participate in the mind at all, so I do not need to react and deal with what I accepted and allowed, but instead stop before the thought even arises. That's one indication of the mind, that you are wavering inside. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying to now become unwavering and embrace the mind. Because that would still be the mind and still accept and allow being wavering in things, especially points of responsibility. I notice that the mind loves entertainment and irresponsibility. I notice that being with my family I can easily see what is irresponsibility. This is one of the greatest gifts others can give me. I KNOW who I should be, because I know what each one of us should be doing. I hold everyone to the same standards, taking into consideration physical limitations, such as disabilities, however the principle is the same. I don't know if the principle can really be named, but it is a principle that respects life, as everyone and everything as equals. For me, this makes life worth living. I do get a feeling within saying/recognizing this point. It is the hope/place where I know what we are capable of and what we are fighting/working towards. It is who I am, as who I always was and who I always will be. But the moment I consider it the mind, the mind pops in. Is the mind then just that? Judging things as separate as more or less, as metaphysical? Is the mind even real? Can we see the mind, poke the mind, taste the mind, destroy the mind? The physical can never be destroyed, just transformed into another form (mass or energy). If the mind can be destroyed, it is not physical, correct? What does this matter? I have nothing to prove to anyone. What matters to me is that everyone works on themselves to see the beauty and grace which is really a responsibility and a knowing and understanding of life, who we are as one and equal, leading to the breaking of limitation, both within us as mind, and outside us as the inefficient society. So do you care? Do you care about yourself? I mean really care, not just superficially care. Do you bother to experience what you are really experiencing here? The conflict. Are you aware of this? Are you ready to forgive and change?
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play 5 hours of video games in a day, and not spending any time at all in certain areas of my life that require attention, such as advancing my career, finding work/internship opportunities, writing blogs, introspecting/reflecting, making contacts, catching up with old friends, playing the piano, exercising, eating well, etc...
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let my mind decide who I am, and not me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to even give a moment's attention to the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be here with what is real, the physical.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to honor one piece of existence, 'the mind' more than the rest of existence, which should be regarded of equal value.
I commit myself to in every moment to be here.
When and as I see I am not here, to stand up and be here again.
When and as I see the mind speaking, to not pay any attention to it.
I commit myself to pay attention to what is here only.
I realise the mind is not here otherwise it would not need me to move in the physical reality. I realise thus that the mind is interdimensional because it is separate from the physical. I realize to direct the physical one must be one and equal to it. I realize that something separate from the physical cannot direct a one and equal outcome that is best for all. I realize fear is separation. I also realize that desire is separation. I realize that who I am is not a reaction, but a living expression. I do not accept myself to be less than who I really am. I commit myself to root out all reactions and patterns and live myself as who I really am, as considering all as one and equal. I realise there is no threat when your one and equal from any sources. I realize the only real enforcing rules are the physical ones and the integrity of oneself, where every action is the absolute reflection of oneself. I realize that through forgiveness and change I can absolve myself. I realize that emotions such as guilt can serve a useful purpose in revealing where separation lies within me. The same would go for all reactions/thinking.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

day 87- Staying Committed

Judging sucks. Where have I judged? I judge those who speak trash about  Desteni related things as inferior, instead of realizing that they simply do not understand what it is they are doing, and the opportunity they are not gifting themselves to stand within self-responsibility and self-forgiveness. Is man inherently good? I would say maybe man inherently wants what is good, but get confused between good for only me, versus good for all and me. Man forgets that the good of all is always greater, and the experience of living in a world of oneness and equality would be so great, because your rejoicing and enjoying everyone, and there are billions of us! And you can be here with yourself and be at peace with yourself. The state of being alone and being with others merge, where all equally honors themselves and each other. Open honesty and clarity can exist. This is our desteni. Join us.

I forgive myself for accepting adn allowing myself to fear the unknown.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what I do not understand,
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge before i get to know something.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not spend time getting to know something completely.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my time as too precious and too short to really give my attention to things.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to focus only on moving fast and no attention to where I am going.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I can escape responsibility by saying that I did not know, when I clearly suspected something was wrong.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to restrict myself and place chains on myself to prevent me from growing and learning and understanding about who I am, and what is controlling me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek life anywhere but within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up the search for Life and who I am, out of fear of rejection by the Desteni group for exposing something nasty or disturbing or unsettling or controversial that would then cause me to lose my opportunity for recognition or attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that the Desteni group is a normal bunch of people from around the world, with their own histories and experiences, and so they are not more special then anyone, and walk the same process we all must walk with ourselves, in taking responsibility for this world/existence, and being the change that is required to correct the imbalance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that writing can make me responsible. This is not possible. I must take responsibility. Anything else would be the mind.

Friday, May 24, 2013

day 86- Standing back up.

I tried to teach another something before I completely understood it myself. I listened to the mind when I did not understand the mind. I still do not understand the mind completely. But I do understand now that the mind cannot be trusted, is not there to make my life easier, is not willing to change into what is best for all. I have to be what is best for all and bring the mind and the rest of reality into alignment with that. I was existing in a fantasy where I was somehow endowed with a special mind, a special position or privilege, where I am special and so exempt from certain hard work or tasks, that the hard work I did do would one day end. That I was working towards a moment where my life would change, magically or miraculously. I didn't live for here, I did not see the people that were here. I was in an alternate reality living in what I called and experienced as the future; believing all the while that I was creating the future with my thoughts or mind, that this is how I create, through the mind. I relied on evidence that if a man were to wake up each day and say I hate myself, he will experience hate towards himself. Where now I say that, why would anyone say I hate myself, because that doesn't make sense. That this cannot really be the person saying I hate myself. Because no one would say this to self. Therefore this has to be what we call the mind. It is what we accept and allow, but its not us, yet it is who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be come, to be someone who allows such a state/place where hate is being spoken to someone.
Therefore, i am not the one creating my future, I have given that power to the mind. So through my permissive stance I have endowed the mind with the opportunity to run amok. It destroys without the consideration of anything or anyone, but itself. It murders, sacrifices, compromises, cheats, abuse, tricks, lies, hides, play games with, toys, mocks, attempts to gain control, makes believe, divides and conquers. My body has atrophied, gone neglected. Caused by my permissive stance towards this reality. I gain permission for this reality to continue. I am grounding myself now into the physical, and this has already gave me some power. The physical is the power house. It is the point where change becomes possible. Probably because it is all that really exists. The mind is interdimensional, only you can experience it, you can't see it with any senses: touch, taste, sight etc... Yet we have given something which we can't even observe physically, more power than the physical, which is here, constantly, and provides for life directly, because it is Life itself. What has the mind done for life? Has the mind made your life better, or for the lives of others? Has the mind supported the fruition of plants or animals? Has it made any impact on the quality of life of Life? Or has it only created a polarity, siphoning the resources, the goods, materials to the wealthy or those with money, giving nothing to those without money, even though they are of Life, like the plants and animals. Where support exists, there is money. Money IS the point of power. Money IS a powerful way to change life for all. Money does provide for the opportunity for happiness. There was a very interesting psychology study done that provided support for a general rule. This rule can be described as follows. After a certain point money does not significantly increase happiness. Though when money is low, every increase in money has a tremendous affect on the quality of living of people. This makes sense right? When you have little, every increase is much more substantial. Therefore I want to point out how important it is to support the Desteni Group at this stage. Because we are small, every increase or support by each individual will have a tremendous effect. Similarly, we really only NEED so much. The rest of our money should be spent on investing in the real change, the real happiness, the real love that needs to be grown and nourished like a flower or potted plant. The beginning stages, like any stage, is crucial. Here we decide who we are and so who we will be at death. And so it is in every moment.
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understand now that the mind cannot be trusted, is not there to make my life easier, is not willing to change into what is best for all
SF
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge it bad if I distrust something.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge it good to trust everything.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the mind would make things easier for me, that its purpose is to serve me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see how I must take directive principle and use the mind to serve life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the mind can take directive principle and serve what is best for all, leaving me to be only an observer and not a direct participant in reality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see how I am always directly participating in reality, whether it is in the mind or with myself being here.
To be continued....

Monday, May 13, 2013

day85 Self-responsibility vs. Responsibility

Desteni group.
- insane, immature, possessed, untrustworthy, child-like, children, crybabies,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think the desteni group is insane, immature, possessed, untrustworthy, child-like, childish, a crybaby.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use reality as an excuse to think a thought over and over, and not stop the thought, because the thought is an "accurate judgement of reality."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a thought can be an accurate judgement, because accurate judgement would require that the judgement be made without bias, and thoughts have energy charges, which create a bias that is not based in reality but is a learned association of something in reality to the emotions and feelings within us.

I commit myself to remove all charges that are a reactive consequence to associating energy to a thought, which itself is made in relation to reality, using words, pictures and other information (smells etc...) which become a memory, which is information stored within me.

So I learned how, what you see in others, actually reveals something about yourself. I have been acting as insane immature, possessed, untrustworthy, child-like, children, crybabies.

I have been acting insane in allowing suicidal thoughts, arguments with myself, allowing insulting thoughts, degrading thoughts. I have been reacting, and tensing my body and jerking my body. I have been acting insane in saying I don't know what to do, I can't do anything, I don't know anything, my life is meaningless
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing suicidal thoughts.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing arguments with myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing insulting thoughts.
i forgive myself for accepting and allowing degrading thoughts.
I forigve myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/say, I don't know what to do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/say, I can't do anything.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/say, I don't know anything.

I have been thinking that if I don't say, I don't know anything, then it must mean I think I know everything.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I must mean I think I know everything, if I stop thinking I don't know anything.
This troubled me because I know that this is not true that I know everything AND I did not want to be attacked by others for speaking about these things or let my words be used as an excuse to attack Desteni, or blame others or blame anyone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the vicious onslaught of the minds of others as an excuse to not stand up and no more accept and allow what others think or say to affect me in who I am and what I stand for and as, but to stand proud in who I am and what I am living, and not in fear or worry in that others may abuse my words in blaming desteni or anyone or anything for anything, instead of everyone taking self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to care more about what others think than what I think about me and what is in front of all to see, the physical, which is the undeniably proof and starting point of everything that Desteni has shared thus far.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing harmful or negative thoughts, because I am afraid that they might be true, when in fact no negative thought is true, because reality is not negative, it is reality, the physical, which is something unbiased and free from polarity because it is constant and consistent within its set of rules and principles; the mind on the other hand is erratic and always acting in polarity and playing sides and games using energy, and destruction to fuel itself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give the same value to everyone's words, because the value of their words is dependent upon what they have studied and what they know about a particular subject.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify ignorance, to justify blatant attacks and disinformation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being attacked for making a mistake or doing something incorrectly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make fear of being attacked or punished, my starting point for doing something correctly, instead of me taking pride in my work and in my expression that it reflects me, who I am, in every way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pay attention to what others say about me in judging me falsely, instead of getting to know me truly, and to pay any heed to what things in my mind that I carry that are a reflection of abusers that attack.

I forgive myself for accepting adn allowing myself to judge if someone is nice it must mean they know me, when in fact they could just be trying to manipulate how others perceive them to gain an advantage to abuse another.

I forgive myself for accepting adn allowing myself to judge that everything within me is kind, when it is obviously filled with harmful information that has been stored through my acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge what another says as truth, instead of investigating for myself, what is true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use failure as an excuse to giving up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge that others know more than me.

I have been immature in seeing myself as a child that knows less than others, and I cannot possibly inform others who are older or more experienced than me about things. I am immature in seeking guidance and help and counsel for everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as child that knows less than others, and doesn't know better than others, and can't possibly inform others on any matter.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear appearing smart and knowledgeable and so take responsibility of informing others on matters.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to have everyone dump responsibility on me, as has happened in the past, because I realize I can always say NO.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let the decisions of others of who they will be, affect my decision of who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking the power to decide my fate and also the fate of others,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am not ready, because I do not know enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing any life-harmful statements from ANYONE.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing possession as if its normal and nothing to pay attention to, when it is a VERY BIG DEAL.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust the mind and the words of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge children as irresponsible and make children the symbol of what I do not want to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge being a baby that cries as something that is symbolically undesirable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not have listened and seen the horrors that were being perpetrated within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in violence.