I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failing, and fear having the willingness to risk myself and lose myself through daring myself to present myself for who I am currently, and challenge myself, thus leading to an investigation that will uncover the truth of myself, and who I really am, and even who others are as myself.
I forgive myself as humanity to divide itself so that some parts are better and seen as more important than others, without realizing how seeing is a belief, opinion, or thought and so requires testing to assess the reality, and to as well define what importance is.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use importance as an excuse to blame humanity, blame plants, blame animals, and to not take responsibility for the destruction and vengeance that we have accepted and allowed to be connected to the definition of the word importance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not redefine importance to non-energetic terms, that important means I must do more, because I can do more, and to be important means using my power to assist and support all, because I am one part of all, and equally a part.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how belief, opinion, and thought only requires a testing for reality, that there is Nothing inherently wrong with beliefs, opinions, and thoughts, and that they are equal to themselves, that they are only sentence structures that demonstrate a person is making a statement, and this statement can either be true or false as it refers to reality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss Reality within all of this thinking, and worrying, and fear I have experienced my Whole life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss a simplicity that I have known perhaps only in childhood, that requires myself to live again as an active participant as simplicity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “give up” (you never really give it up, it is always here) the basic truths that I have kept close to my heart, so to speak, of who we are, what we are capable of (everything) and what will make us actually happy, instead of this fake happiness that only lasts so long, and also destroys everything.
I commit myself to find myself by risking myself in writing and introspection, and speaking.
I commit myself to stick with the core truths I have uncovered and continue testing them and using them and updating them according to the evidence I receive.
I commit myself to continue washing away all fears and doubts and see how in the past I have stood up from fears through direct participation and breathing.
I realize that happiness and positive feelings will require immense forgiveness, and specificity, equal to the level of forgiveness that is applied for others patterns that are stopped such as fears, and how at the core of each feeling is an emotion, which I notice included sadness in the past, whenever happiness was involved and one technique I used to uncover this was pretending a situation changed such that I was previously happy though now sad, revealing how the mental environment (the mental box) determines the state of the person, and how this is deceptively structured, and no feeling or emotion is really honestly the person himself being here with you and with this reality. Time to step out of the box and into these two feet.