The Self is the key. You are the key. If you want to make things better, focus on yourself. Do you have a relationship with yourself? Are you able to hold yourself and know yourself? Do you know what you are feeling? Do you know what you are thinking? Are you here with yourself? Do you Know yourself?

Self is the Key. You are the Key. You have the power. You are the power. You need to know the power. You need to know yourself. You need to know who you are right now in this moment in what you are thinking and feeling. And you need to start stopping whatever it is that is not best for you. You need to start stopping that which is harmful to Life.

Be the Self that is Free from all limitation, pain, abuse, destruction, and full of creation, ability, and potential. You start becoming through self-forgiveness.

Would you like to have a relationship with Your self?

Monday, December 31, 2012

Day-45: Fear; its got you by the balls.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am nothing without success.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am worthless if I do not live a life of worth.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire a life of worth.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exclude myself from what it means to live a life of worth, and chose to follow fear of appearing arrogant to others (i ironically became arrogant as a result)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing my relationship with myself, within who i am with me, how i interact with me and reality, that i was somehow dishonest and everything i had lived needed to be lost, without realizing i am simply investigating me piece by piece and see, through asking, am i in fact living, am i in fact here? I am in fact in directive power? And daring to see the truth which requires only for me to be here to see. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my fear that i was in fact totally dishonest, without questioning the fear or whether i was really dishonest to myself and hiding something and participating in something harmful to life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing real fears i am participating within and as myself, and had instead made up fears, and spoke nasty about myself to then try and walk these nasty things which were really not too bad in comparison, and were not the real fears and were only the smoke and mirrors that his what was occurring within and as me. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore myself here, out of fear of appearing bad and feeling bad.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear participating in a moreness and a powerfulness of myself that I choose to be weak and submissive and experience very little to avoid seeming arrogant.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking arrogant to others, thus i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear believing and thinking i appear arrogant to others, and others think i am not honest in my words, and something must be wrong with me.  
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think something is wrong with me without seeing what it is i am saying is wrong, without supporting myself through changing, and so only think this as a way to judge me and label me as bad so that i do not have to face the badness at all, that i am all bad, and so i give up. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to simply judge and label things without understanding the things i am speaking of, and see who i am within these words that claim i know this thing when i may have no clue what is going on, and so i would require as a correction to investigate these things thoroughly before saying anything about this thing, which has included self-judgement, and self-ignorance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others in ignorance of what is in fact occuring, and so recognize what i do not know, and how trustworthy the information i have is in fact is. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust any information blindly and not investigate before making real decisions based off of the information in front of me. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my trust.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust light, positivity, and happiness. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question what is underneath the surface.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to claim things about me or others without understanding what is occurring in detail of the context/situation. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust me to investigate whether this experience that I was already claiming and judging as a moreness, without investigating it, to really see what this is, whether, it is real, an expression of who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that all things lived within the mind can be lived within a self-expression as the physical, and so there is nothing wrong with the mind, and with any word like more, greater, light, and what this process is is us taking responsibility for what the mind has taken responsibility for, directing us in reality, and so for the first time we can start to take this responsibility slowly and surely within considering this reality as ourselves. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe, perceive, and think that if i can just program the mind to support life, all will be well, when i would in fact remain a slave still, and not ever know reality unless i stand up and really direct all that this life has to offer me. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to assume and believe that I am in fact living here, without being here to see if this is true, thus, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ever trust a belief, instead of investigating and seeing direct the matter at hand. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I do not have to be here completely as this physical body, as breath, to be aware of whether I am in fact directing myself and am the one expressing me in specificity. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not read words here as myself, in direct seeing the meaning of each word. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stop considering the position of everyone and seeing everyone as an equal, and how i am no more nor less than anyone else as life, including objects, things, nature, plants, and animals, along with humans, and even the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear I was doing everything wrong, without even being aware what I was doing wrong and why, and I only stayed within a judgement, and self-pity, and anguish. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think there is a thought waiting for me that will have all the answers to questions i have, and there will be a great realization where i feel i understand now and i can trust this information. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust feelings.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see what others say as simply what others have said and it depends on me whether I react to what others say or I really investigate what others have said and see how it can support life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I know nothing that I have no clue what to do, without investigating whether this is in fact true.
I commit myself to walk my process for myself as life, and treat others as I would myself. 
I commit myself to test any assumptions i have.
I commit myself to test all beliefs i have.
I commit myself to question what designs, and programs i am following.
i commit myself to test my words and my writing.
i commit myself to test all information.
I commit myself to be practical with what i can know, what i can't know, and what i can trust. 
thanks

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Day-44:Use the Mind to Support the Birth of Life

What is best for all? Can love become what is best for all? A better question, why is love not what is best for all? Why is love separate from what is best for all? Why am I not aware of each thought I have, and each any every impulse, movement, inclination within me? Why do I pretend I am aware of such things? How do I become aware of who I am really within making a decision for example?
What am I basing my decisions on? What factors am I considering, who am I considering? Do I consider just me or am I considering others too? Do I allow feelings to make a decision for me? Do I one day choose A because I feel good and choose B because I feel bad? Is there more than just my feelings/emotions? (yes).

I make doing what is best for all my priority to consider in my decision. This is something for me to live and apply. To whether I feel good or bad to do what is best for all. Like questioning, why do I feel good or bad? Why do I consider anything other than what is best for all (includes me, since I am part of all, one and equal)?

I cannot fight the mind. Fighting the mind would be fighting myself. I need to understand the mind. Ask questions. Question the mind, and so understand the mind. And so understand who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as well, and what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as the physical body. Also what is the physical body really.

One interesting answer I have to the question what do we know when we do x and y happens? Only that when x happened in the past, it was followed by y. We do not know anything else, we just literally have a memory. Its amazing the number of assumptions we (I) have made. The generalizations, the extensions, the expectations and the beliefs, all a memory.

In addition, I have to use the mind completely, and all the resources and things I  have at my disposable to assist me in changing. There is nothing bad with any of it per se, that I can use all I of me, and with this challenge of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed imprisonment, you betcha im gonna need all of me on this one. I need to bring and use all of me, all that I have become to assist me in changing. Everything that works, works, so keep it. See what is assistive and supportive and use it. Whatever really in fact support me in changing really, stably, to what is best for all, to consider all (including me) equally in everything and really support a change through the EMC, @ http://www.quora.com/EMCapitalism , join us.

My self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of using the mind, because I was afraid of having a mind, because I wanted to be accepted by others as having no mind, because I wanted to be perfect, because I wanted to feel good and become more.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of writing me out in detail, for myself to see who I am in detail.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I can do this alone, when really I need to use every resource I have available, within and without, to have the best chance to free myself, which I realize that it is a difficult journey and I need to give it everything I got.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fight the mind and separate myself from my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having a mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what others may say or think if they were to see my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see my mind as bad.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand that whatever I judge as bad is really myself judging myself as bad.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that the mind is part of self, and can be utilized to support myself and life even within stopping programs of the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up and give into fear and anger instead of realizing that I am not really giving it all I got, within which I can be self-honest and hold no regrets as to actually using all my resources in supporting myself and life.
When and as I see myself feeling despair when I am stuck in writing or in another activity, I stop and breathe and I ask myself, am I giving it all I got? – I realize I can probably do more – I realize there may be options, choices, and tactics I have not tried or I have ignored, or I am afraid of using/doing – I realize that the mind is me and there is no point in fearing the mind and I know that I am not limited to following the mind’s programs, and that the mind can be a great tool – I realize despair is a program I can step out of and then direct the situation I am in.
I commit myself to stand up through utilizing all of me and be directive with the mind to in fact support life.
I commit myself to write clearly and in detail, using what I have learned about communication and writing, where I write so that what I write sounds easy to read/hear, and also easy/clear to understand where all questions that may rise are clarified.
I commit myself to live my words.
I commit myself to say only what I mean to say.
I commit myself to write my words so that my words stand for all of time.
I commit myself to be as practical as possible with my words, in referring to referents that are the most accessible to as many people as possible.
I commit myself to use vocabulary that is generally accepted by society so that society can understand me, where possible.
I commit myself to be cognizant how a person reading my writing for the first time will understand it.
I commit myself to remember what I learned today that despair is a program I can step out of and all I require is myself, all of me, to do it.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Day 43: A new Beginning

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I had an interesting moment just earlier. Its difficult for me to write, probably in part for the same reason I am writing this blog. The reason being about this realization that I ask permission for myself to live, essentially. I ask permission to have my realizations about myself to be able to be lived and applied by me. I feel wrong and bad to even ask someone whether I can live and apply this realization I had on myself. This realization that I ask permission to even realize things about me. I see also how the same thing goes for asking permission to do bad things, where self-honestly I would not do those things, yet I want to from the perspective of the mind. Which is another layer, of the mind. And I can see how this asking for permission is really my mind granting itself permission. Where sometimes the mind may use a few words out of context to give itself permission (me) to do the thing it wants (I want). And I trust it, because I received permission, therefore I must be self-honest, when really self-honesty does not require permission from anyone, or justification from anyone else to live and apply a realization that self has realized, which self can even be held accountable for because self realized it within awareness, and it is not dependent on anyone else through asking their permission. Within this then I give permission, so to speak, to myself to live, and realize there is no goddam separation that I am self-responsible for how I live and what I apply myself as. That permission was an excuse, to do things that I would not otherwise allow myself to do. Or also to not do things, that I would want to live as because there was a point of self-honesty within that realization.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ask permission to apply and live a realization I have on me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use ‘permission’ as an excuse to not live and apply realization I have on me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use ‘permission’ as an excuse to not be self-honest.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse ‘permission’ through utilizing it to support separation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel wrong and bad for not asking another whether I can live and apply a realization I had on me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distrust myself through using asking permission.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself through using asking permission to live.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am not capable, I am worthless, I am nothing, and I require others to help me and support me to become self-honest, that I cannot possibly know anything for sure.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not utilize others effectively to serve as mirrors of myself, to investigate myself effectively in self-honesty and in self-direction, and breath.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on thoughts to let me know who I am, what I should do, instead of me taking self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forsake me within trusting the mind and within trusting others, that somehow the mind and others would know better than me, that I cannot possibly know for sure, which I know is BS, since I can practically walk a timeline of events to see the outcome, and therefore assess what is best for all through this method along with the one and equal principle. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not use others as only a cross-reference for myself, and even then to not believe others but to test for myself in self-honesty again, who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am nothing in comparison to the mind, that I am worthless in comparison to knowledge, that I am not capable of knowing what I should do, and therefore to trust my past completely instead of standing up one and equal to my past, and see the real past and real history of myself, instead of seeing just the mind altered history.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit my self-honesty to just that which others can and will agree with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear repercussions from standing within and as self-honesty that others disagree with and reject or dislike.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise my self-honesty when I am being seen by others, where I hide who I am and my self-honesty for fear of rejection and conflict and rather present a nice picture.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I need to get on everyone’s good side in order to have them listen to me later on.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as inferior than everyone else.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think everyone else is more happier than me and that something is wrong with me and I must change, and get people to like me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want others to tell me what is good or bad about me so I can become more good.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not consider myself as an equal in process and only saw myself as a thing that needed information and input on who to become, when really process is me standing up to change me within the understanding of who we really are as life as all as one and equal, where no one else can show me this, that only I can see this for myself, and there also I am not responsible for whether others see it and can at most show a sliver of it to them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to measure who I am according to how relax or happy I feel.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to measure who I am according to how much anxiety, and stress I feel.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to become stressless and anxiety free without understanding how or why I am stressed and feel anxiety.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire a care-free life when oneness and equality requires caring for all, and ever bit and piece equally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowng myself to think I am part of something greater, when really I am not greater and only equal.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be seen as more.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse this physical body through thinking I am more now.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am more.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think anyone can become more.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others disagreeing with me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am less than if others disagree with me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think people are wrong for not applying their best effort and all they need to do is change and its easy to do so.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make assumptions on who another is and what their process has been like, and what others will think of me, when I am the only one here having these thoughts, so they only reveal me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek answers outside of me on who I am, when only I can know who I am, and how I am, and anything else would be a lie.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I need to prove my self-honesty to others and that I am more for being self-honest with me when self-honesty only has to do with me and is for each alone to live with themselves.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I can inform another what is self-honest.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my self-forgiveness and self-honesty instead of always testing and making sure whether it is really self-honest.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think if others agree with me it must mean I am right.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear breaking the bubble, in myself or others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think some beings are more than others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I can be more or less than anyone, including life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not focus on my application and living moment to moment and work on me, instead of getting caught up in comparisons, and thoughts, and theories, conspiracies on myself and others, worries, doubts, and concerns.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust a physical movement to mean something, instead of investigating for myself what this physical movement means.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself through trusting blindly my mind, my thoughts, my physical body, my self-honesty, my self-trust, my self-forgiveness, instead of making sure I am here creating who I am, in breath and my starting point is oneness and equality as all as one and equal, since this is self-honest and the more preferable way to live.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be less than who I am because I wanted an easier process.
I commit myself to apply myself fully who I am in everything that I do.
I commit myself to breathe in every moment with and as the physical
I commit myself to utilize others as mirrors for who I am.
I commit myself to establish self-honesty with myself.
I commit myself to create me according to the principle of oneness and equality.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Day-42:Being Unaware of youself is Laziness

Laziness.
Where have i accepted and allowed laziness to manifest?
its funny, laziness does not have to be inactivity.

Being here could be an "inactivity" for a moment and breathing while i sit for example. Though its not inactive. In looking for laziness, its in those moments of walking to the cafeteria to eat where i am lazy in that i do not walk in equality with the physical. Being unaware of yourself is laziness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be here and walk with the physical while walking somewhere.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be here when sitting while on the computer. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be here when using words in speech or in writing.
I commit myself to be here with the entire physical body, including the hands, feet, legs, pelvic area, belly, back, shoulder, neck, chest, arm pits, face, top of the head, back of the head, belly button, the inner organs, the bones, my knees, and to also sit up straight when at the computer (having "good" posture prevents scoliosis).
I commit myself to be here with the physical body and walk in breath, breathing at the pace necessary for the body, moving at a rhythm and rate that i am directing, pressure of the legs that i am directing and to be aware of the thoughts that arise and to support me in walking in good posture with my muscles supporting the framework of the skeleton
I commit myself to be here before speaking to ensure i am not speaking from a thought.
I commit myself to be here and speak/write as myself as the words that are spoken/written.

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Day-41: Equal Money and Competition; How will children live in a world that is best for all?

 I did a vlog on this text below that i wrote, and i will now follow through with self-forgiveness...
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Children are taught competition. Look at this commonsense. Children are taught games where competition is required. Why is this brainwashing/teaching not questioned? If no child was brainwashed to play sports based on compeition, or games of competition etc… would children compete? If children were given everything they required to live a dignified life, would they compete? If children were taught to care for life and each other, would they compete?
Obviously not.
The entire generation of abusers and ego can end in One generation of children if humanity dares to take on the challenge. We think competition is natural, though ask yourself, would competition exist without survival? What if survival was taken care of, that everythin you require is provided for. That would end survival wouldn’t it? That’s living in the lap of luxuray, of course within responsibility and caring for life, as that is the only way such an existence can exist where all are cared for, requiring all to Participate in the caring for all. The beauty of it is that you do need to be a good being, or even a bad being to see the commonsense of caring for all, so caring for yourself. Its commonsense. Care for all, care for yourself, since all will support you equally as one as you supported them. And there obviously strength in numbers as history can show us. 
SO is competition necessary? In my thesis for school I will try and show that any “positive” effects of competition is the result of either the body performing at its potential or it is a delusion. It is an interesting undertaking. Past research already shows how both good feelings and negative feelings are produced such that in competition you feel worse. This study I am referring to was using a cognitive task. One can imagine that when during physical competition you feel good through the movement of the body. This is a separate question that can be tested as well. ANYway.
Schools, are these systems supporting survival. So is our work/jobs, supporting survival. Why not instead, take everything of this world to actually “take care” of survival such that survival does not exist anymore, and what exist is life, well what would be the potential for life. Is this cool? Is this commonsense? Who agrees? Disagrees? Why? 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question competition as necessary and see that competition is an excuse to not direct oneself to achieve a life of principled living that includes the definition of life as self.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to as society, use competition as an excuse to not take self-responsibility for this world and who we are.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compete with another in hopes of winning without see the starting point of desiring to see i wanted to be more, without realizing actual reality of the situation that we are all one and equal in the physical and cannot be more than ourselves. 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see the commonsense that competition is not real yet had real physical consequences that manifest inside the human body like stress, anxiety, which is suppressed when we win, which can be observed in athletes where they break under pressure and lose a competition. 
 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing sports within reality as a proponent of competition without questioning whether we as humanity should be fixating our selves, our attention, and our time within a game where there are real horrors that require sorting out, and require our selves, our attention, and our time in committing to end abuse in lack of basic resource to live through a practical solution and not through band aid effort like charities, but a real actual permanent way to ensure everyone is taken care of. 
I commit myself to stand as an active support of education for others to learn what an equal money system is as a system designed to manifest what is best for all in fact, in a mathematical and measurable fashion, done with and through everyone, as equals in actually manifesting the system piece by piece where all are active in ensuring their own support and so all, through supporting what is best for all. 
I commit myself to show you do not need competition to do what requires doing, through becoming a living example of doing what requires doing in my daily life and moment to moment application of myself.
I commit myself to show it is who i am in what i do, not what i do, that determines what i do and even who i am.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Day-40: Some Groundwork and Some Gurus


Im going to take this deconstruction of myself slowly.

I always wanted an easy life. 

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I can see this play out in the context of two summers ago where my dad, my brother and cousin and I were building a shed for my dad. I noticed how I did not try my best and how my dad kept telling me I would hate this kind of work because I do not enjoy working, like him. He wanted me to get a degree so I can get a job that does not require to much work and makes relatively more money than other jobs without degrees. This reminds me now of a conversation my dad and I had around the time I was about to enter highschool. We were walking outside at night and my dad asked me if I could have any job in the world, any, what would that be? What would you do out of love? To respond I first looked inside and saw a distaste for work that had no 'significance' where people are not 'helped' in what they need helped with most. I made it my job/responsibility to help people with their minds.  Behind these thoughts/my mind was feeling love and fear for doing a job for another person that was not entertaining. Love was an entertainment then for me. And the ultimate entertainment was feeling love within being someone who helps people through having total control of another being through their trust of your words. The basic design of a guru, from my perspective. A psychologist is also a form of a guru, where people trust the clinical psychologist to tell them/show them who they are/what their minds consist of, and how to change. In fact the entire system is filled with gurus as teachers, politicians, parents, adults(if your a child), old people(if your not old), it all depends on a trusting "the superiors." God then too is a guru/psychologist, with his holy books as the manual that is supposedly has all the knowledge of who you are and so you do not have to trust yourself, just trust God (this is a big point i am only touching on).
 To start off on self-forgiveness I am going to tackle a specific point of placing self-trust in separation of myself from this moment here to the outside/external that I believe to exist because I felt they existed in my mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my own words to tell me who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my teachers to tell me who I am/how to be.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my parents to tell me who I am/the best way to live.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in gurus to tell me who I am/how to realize who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in love to tell me who I am/how to be.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in God to tell me who I am/what I should do with my life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself not realize teachers, parents, gurus, love, and God are here as me that I do not need to place trust outside of myself here, as all is here as myself as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my own feelings to tell me who I am/what I should do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my own thoughts to tell me who I am/what I should do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in my own emotions to tell me who I am/what I should do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see directly who I am in the moment here and trust me to be able to see who I am, as all that is here is me and only requires me to be here to see.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that the following statement: "all I have to do is be here with the mind and allow the mind to tell me who the mind is and thus who I am" implies I can allow the mind to direct me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I can stop the mind in just one moment, and not realize I am in a process of stopping the mind and equalizing myself with the physical and so I have to both stand as the physical and stand as the mind to then stop the mind through self-forgiveness and writing.
I commit myself to continue the deconstruction of myself on these points daily.
I commit myself to investigate in my writings my fear of making a daily commitments to write.
I commit myself to write on my fear of making commitments I think I can't keep.
I commit myself to enter fears and stand as them to understand them so I can release them through forgiveness, all within utilizing my stand as the physical to support me in seeing these fears and taking them to self-forgiveness and self-correction in the physical.
I commit myself to build trust with me through proving to me what I am able to walk.